Jentri is here!

OK- so yes it's been quite some time since I blogged but life is by far crazier than I ever imagined possible at the moment. I knew two kids would be more of a handful and pose a few more challenges; however- it's so much harder than I ever expected. No, I'm not whining. I'm just not one of those that like to sugar coat things and pretend that everything is just peachy. I believe in being totally honest and open with the world about how my lifestyle is because I feel that some girls get pregnant b/c they think it being a mommy is so "Easy". HA! Little do they know! Anyways- so far, things are going better and we are getting adjusted to a routine now. Jentri now has acid reflux, was given medicine yesterday, so we are hoping our after feeding fussiness will diminish soon! Jeremy has been back at work for 2 weeks now, and that has affected Jaylee more than the rest of us. She now knows what a countdown is, and her and her daddy hold up 5 fingers on Sunday when he leaves- and then we take away a finger every day! Boy does she ever get excited on that Friday when there are no more fingers left and she knows her Daddy is coming back home! You might be asking why we aren't up there with him, you might even think I am being selfish by not going- but let me explain. Jeremy leaves for work between 7 and 7:30 every morning, and doesn't return until 8 or 8:30. Well, with our new routine of 2 kids, I try to have both kids fed, bathed, and in bed by 8:30. This way things will go smoother once I return to work! So, the girls honestly would only see their Daddy for an hour, if even that a day, and I don't think it's worth it. So, it is a little heartbreaking at times because I feel he is having to miss out on Jentri's newborn stage. In the meantime, I have started praying for job with as good of benefits and pay that is closer to home. We have been very blessed with his current job and his promotion, and we have all done well with the new lifestyle and adjusting to it. Of course it is hard, but that's just part of life! You take what life hands you- and you have to make the best of it! I don't ask for any ones pity or sympathy because we chose this. All I have ever asked for is prayers to keep Jeremy safe and the girls and I safe while we are apart during the week!

So- hopefully, now that things are starting to get better/smoother-- I am hoping to be able to blog more!

Sometimes, Life just isn't "Fair"....

Everyday, I try to live my life making the best decisions that I can with dignity, class, and character. I try to base every decision and treat every person as if I want to be treated and know that is how God wants me to live. Lots of things have come my way, and I've always turned the cheek, and never voiced concern to the direct person/problem. I always feel that it will work itself out and that if I just keep my cool, sit back, it will reside. Now, I have always voiced/vented to family/friends, but today I was to the point that I had "had it!" I stooped to the low level of venting on facebook, but gosh darn it--- something needs to be done!

Why is it that you have to be some overbearing, rude, loud-mouthed, person to get things accomplished these days? I am crushed for the reason that I try to do everything right, I never complain, and why is the ONE time I do..... I get treated like a 2 year old and on top of that my integrity questioned? Whereas, those that are consistent gripers and bellyachers can go constantly to wherever it is or at whoever it is that they are unhappy with and throw their weight around and continuously get their way. LIFE IS NOT FAIR.

Is that what this world has come to? That we have to act like such "fools" in order to get something done/accomplished/won? I keep telling myself, surely not, but the more I think about it-- I'm beginning to wonder. I keep asking myself, "WWJD?" and I know that what I am doing is right and just going on about life. But it totally infuriates me at how some things are truly "unfair" in life. It's really close to that famous line of "it's not what you know- it's WHO you know".

Tonight!

Ok, Tonight is the Bachelorette Season Finale and Cake Boss' last show for a while. These are two shows that I DVR and watch every single Monday night...... and currently the City of Munday is filling in the pot holes out in the street right in front of my house. Could one of these 3 things possibly be what Jentri is waiting on!?

I was a little disappointed this past weekend when she didn't make her appearance. I really thought with my Mom being home, Jeremy being home, and now that my Mother in law is off of harvest, the ball would start to roll. However, Jentri is quite the little "Lowe" and has decided to live up to everything that her name means-- which is-- NEVER GETTING IN A HURRY!

Yes, I'm starting to get anxious, because I really, do not want to be induced. I really prefer the labor route, although, many have assured me that induction can be just as smooth if not easier than the whole labor thing. Of course induction does work best for my husband and his job at the moment, but I'm too OCD to handle induction. I don't like "knowing it's coming"! I know that I won't sleep a lick the night before and I'll be having anxiety attacks knowing that the next day, she WILL be born, and I WILL be contracting, and I WILL be screaming for that wonderful epidural.

So--- let's hope that either these pot holes, The Bachelorette, or Cake Boss might be what she is waiting on!