Let it Snow!

Blizzard Warning? Are you serious!?!? I move 3 hours from home to find myself sitting, waiting, watching for a BLIZZARD to arrive! What  a difference 3 hours can make! After speaking to my mother earlier I learned that it was beautiful and 78 degrees at home today..... yet here it was 38! I sat and pondered back and forth all day if I REALLY needed to go to Wal-mart in the neighboring town, or just wait it out.....Surely there was enough to survive on. My day went on, the warnings kept popping up, and Jeremy got called out to work.
Then, later this afternoon my coworkers started expressing concern of this upcoming storm, questioning safety, electricity concerns and my curiousity peaked. Then, my phone rang and it was my husband telling me I better go stock up at the store incase of a so-called "whiteout" headed our way. Do what? Whiteout is where it is just gorgeously WHITE, right!?! Ha! That's a big, No! A whiteout is so much snow that causes electricity to go out! Yikesabee!
So, as I had JUST got Jentri down for a nap, my friend Wendy came over and watched the girls while I ran to the store. You would not BELIEVE the grocery store. Black Friday is the appropriate adjective! No buggies available, no shopping carts, no bread on the shelf left, etc.! Pure craziness and chaos!
So~here's to waiting to ride out our first "blizzard/whiteout" storm in the Panhandle of Texas!
Stay tuned my friends, details to come!

Wishing.....

“We buy things we don't need with money we don't have to impress people we don't like.”
~ Dave Ramsey

In a funk!

Have you ever been in a funk? You know what I'm talking about.... just that mood where you just "don't care?". Yup, I'm there, and have been for about a week now. Why you might ask, or what the cause is. That, I can't answer. I've pondered, recently, asking myself "why do I feel this way?" Even had a coworker stop and ask if I was ok this week. I then asked myself "Am I ok?"
I don't know.
First of all, one trigger would be my mother getting a new job. She has spent the past 3 years working away from home, in prayerful hopes of one day returning home. Recently, God fulfilled his plan for her and she now gets to return home and be back in her home, out of the trailerhood, and with her husband.  Let me just get it out that I couldn't be happier for her and my stepdad. However, this is my funkiness- I may be just a tad bit jealous that I'm not home anymore. Now with her being there she is able to attend and go to things of my nieces and nephews, yet still be 3 1/2 hours away from my kids. Some may call it selfish, yet some have told me that my feelings are normal. What gets me to feeling this way the most is looking back at my Grandmother and her 4 girls (my aunts). My mom was the one who lived 6 miles from my Grandmother- so my Grandmother was able to attend, do, and give to us (grandchildren) at anytime! Yet, it always had to be a planned trip to go see her other 3 children and their families. She wasn't at their day to day functions. Nor was she at their Sunday lunch table every Sunday. And that's the part that's hurting the worst- Sunday lunch. Everyone sitting around my mom's table, everyone visiting, cousins playing, and yet, we won't be there.
Don't get me wrong- I'm happy where I am in life. I love Canadian, I wish there was an even bigger word for LOVE when it came to my job. I can't wait for Jaylee to start school here next year. I feel like Educationally, we have and are giving our girls the absolute best compared to where we came from. Yet, it's the little things that get me. I know my Mom will make the effort to attend big things like Dance Recitals and such, however, when time goes on and we are playing basketball games every Thursday evening, I know that won't be the case. Yet, if I was home, she would probably be at every one of them.
So, pardon my funky self. I'm just working through some things currently!

And don't it feel good?

Remember that song.....Walking on Sunshine? Although it's probably more of a love story song, I just have that one line stuck in my head.... "and don't it feel good?"

"I'm walking on sunshine , wooah
I'm walking on sunshine, woooah
I'm walking on sunshine, woooah
and don't it feel good!! "
Why am I walking on sunshine? Well, I'll give it to you in one word- FORGIVENESS!

Wow- I finally have experienced a very low valley in life, with someone I never thought possible, and after 6 long months without having that relationship, I finally forgave and am on to rebuilding that relationship.

Someone once told me that "I have forgiven that person, but I don't have to have a relationship with that person"..... Really? That's a big pile of BS in my opinion! If you can't have a relationship, then you haven't forgiven.

I recently was told If we receive forgiveness from God, we must give it to others who hurt us. We cannot hold grudges or seek revenge. We are to trust God for justice and forgive the person who offended us. That does not mean we must forget the offense, however; usually that's beyond our power. Forgiveness means releasing the other from blame, leaving the event in God's hands, and moving on.


So my friends, I'm moving on! I feel so much better having that big ol stuffy cloud above my head, daunting me to let it go, get it out, forgive Brittany, and move on!

And just as soon as I let it all go- I immediately had this song in my head....

"I'm walking on sunshine , wooah
I'm walking on sunshine, woooah
I'm walking on sunshine, woooah
and don't it feel good!! "


Have a great day, friends!