TGIF!

Yay! My favorite day of the week! I love knowing that when I lock my classroom today, that it's 2 whole days away and just for my family and I! I get excited on Friday's because either we go see Jeremy or he comes home and he is coming home this weekend. You would think after 10 years of being together, that I still wouldn't get butterflies, but I do. There is something about hearing his pickup pulling in the driveway that just makes me flutter! Jaylee---doesn't even give it a chance before she is out the door, clothes or no clothes, standing there waiting to meet her Daddy! It melts my heart to see her get so excited to see him! Of course we have phone conversations throughout the week, but it still is nothing compared to the anticipation of him arriving home! I have learned, even moreso now, to cherish my weekends and value every single minute because as some families get every day together, we only get 2. So- it makes it even that much more special!

That big ordeal that everyone keeps talking about....

OK....so I just want to express the fact that, my entire life I have been completely 100% infatuated with weddings...from all the little details of dresses, venues, etc..... to the expressions on the bride/grooms face. I use to watch TLC's A Wedding Story all summer long, and never miss an episode. I still love to watch Say Yes to the Dress, but for some reason, I have not the slightest interest in the Royal Wedding. I guess, I do want to see a picture of her and her dress(es), but I think that will be suffice. I for sure do not care what kind of dishes they are serving the meal on, nor do I care the flavor(s) of icing that will be on the cake. Really? Why does anyone else care about those tiny details!? Why does it matter!? When it's all set and done, and at the end of the day tomorrow, they aren't any more married than myself or any other married person for that matter. I understand it is royalty, and she is marrying a prince, but I just feel that we have gone overboard a little with all the constant coverage of every single detail. I feel that the girl cannot even flatulate without the world knowing it this week! Poor thing- all she wants is to marry her prince and she can't but help to be faced into a camera at every single second of her life this week! Anyways, yes I have my DVR set for the momentous occassion, but I won't be setting my alarm clock to get up and watch it live!

My husband just called and asked "Are you planning on leaving me anytime soon?"

He then went on to tell me that 2 of the guys he worked with, had their wives walk out on them this week b/c of the distance and strain that this job has been putting on their marriage.

It amazes me, how some are just so quick to divorce and separate these days. How easy it is to just give up on something now! Jeremy and I never consider divorce an option, and I believe that is what it should be. To me, Marriage is a goal--a long term goal--and I am desiring to achieve that 25-50-and God Willing, 75 year marriage milestone! I love Jeremy today, tomorrow,and always. I am grateful that God has blessed me with him. No matter the difficult distance that is put between us,

I know that God will always bring us through because of the strong faith that we place in HIM.

Waiting for my favorite work day of the year!

TAKS!

Well.....another school year has come and almost gone and here we are at the time of yet another, TAKS test. I've had classes where they all were "low", I've had classes where 75% were GT, and I've had classes that were as inconsistent as a moody female. Overall, who knows what these next two days will bring. I am just glad to know that, regardless of scores, I still have a job and am thankful to not have a boss who puts the pressures upon their teachers like some schools do!

That Sunday Feeling.....

Well, it's the time of day in the week, where I get to the lowest of all lows. It's time to return to work, which is so stressful this year, let alone especially this week of TAKS testing.....and my husband has to load his pickup and leave for the week. It's a routine for us, we do this every Sunday, about the same time, and I feel so helpless and weak whenever he drives off. I wake up ready to go on Monday, but right now, I just hate this empty feeling that it leaves me with. Sometimes I want to scream "WHY?" and other times I just rejoice and think "Thank you for this wonderful opportunity God!" But it's still hard! Jeremy and I, honestly, know nothing other than distance in our relationship. We have been "together" for 10 years now and our relationship has always had some distance whether it was college, while I was in high school, harvest in the summers while I was in summer school, and now it's only him being away during the week 3 hours away. But it's hard! As I listen to the song "Homesick" I just keep repeating the line "Won't you give me strength, to make it through somehow" and it seems to make me feel better. I feel like a little baby, bawling the way that I do when I hear his pick up leave. It's even harder with a toddler wondering what's wrong with you, so I always try to go to another room to get myself together for her sake. More than anything, I just pray that God just keeps our Marriage strong and our faith in HIM even stronger. HE is the only reason we have survived these difficult distance obstacles, and I am ever so grateful!

How Blessed Are We?

As Easter has come and gone for our family, I just can't help but sit and think about how blessed we are! I think that as chaotic as it may get, and as many eggs as I have had to stuff and fill, or as much food as I had to prepare...... I wouldn't trade it for the world! Some don't have anywhere or anything to do on Easter, and here I sit and just count all of my blessings this Easter....and they are in no particular order!

1. Being a child of God and knowing that he is Risen!

2. Getting to have an all day Easter celebration at my in-laws yesterday

3. Waking up to the Easter Bunny at home leaving something for Jaylee and having our traditional breakfast casserole

4. Having a loving church family to celebrate Easter service with!

5. Having a mother who can prepare a fried chicken meal better than anyone else I know!

6. Jaylee having a blast with all of her cousins and numerous egg hunts.

7. Getting to see and spend time with alot of our family.

8. Having a Lolli to annually take her grandchild Easter dress shopping.

9. Being financially able to buy ourselves an Easter outfit.

10. Being able to be together as a family on Easter, and not having to be apart.

So, as some may get frustrated, tired and worn out with all the different places they have to go, I try to stay positive and look at the many blessings that God has given my family!

My Mom's Famous Quotes!

Currently, I am having a hard time dealing with a certain someone and they're about to drive me crazy! I can't help but think of my Mom and 2 quotes that she always told me. When she would say these quotes, it would make me so mad I could spit fire, but looking back, I totally see the truth in them.

# 1- "Suck it up and deal with it!"

#2- "When you think the whole world is against YOU, maybe it ISN'T the world, maybe it's YOU"

This Crazy Life We Live.....

So, after lots of debating, contemplating, and wondering, I've finally done it....I created my blog. Many of my friends have encouraged me to do this, in order of having a way of expressing myself in this "Crazy Life" that my family and I live!

10 years ago, I never, ever pictured my life turning out this way. Okay, yes the wonderful husband, the adorable daughter, the one on the way, the little puppy who barks at her own shadow, a devout christian, the red brick home, the teaching job, the wonderful family, sure, I did picture that. But did I ever picture myself being employed as a Knox City Greyhound, attending a Baptist church, and having suppers in front of my TV watching Max & Ruby with my toddler, and a husband working far away...... NEVER! God has a funny way of changing our plans, and boy, has mine ever been changed, but I don't for one minute consider my life to be "messed up". Different? Of course! Not many approve, agree, or could live this lifestyle that my family has chosen to live, but that's why my blog is what is---

My blog is a way for me to just get it all out there...and to just let it go. My mom is 5 hours away, living in her own world (temporarily!), dealing with her own problems and being homesick,---so I don't feel "right" when I call and moan to her about my itty bitty problems---and my sister's have their own crazy/busy lives with just as many issues/problems/laughs/drama to deal with, so why make their stack any higher?! Then, my husband, is 3 hours away, working to support us, and so it doesn't feel right spilling my guts about petty things whenever he has to be away from his entire family, kids, and "life" so I don't feel it's fair to spill on him either. And talking to a 2 yr old, is really, well, I'm sure you get the idea. SO, all in all, this is my vent page! This is my way to just let anyone or noone, depending on who chooses to read this blog, know of how I'm feeling at the current moment!