That Sunday Feeling.....

Well, it's the time of day in the week, where I get to the lowest of all lows. It's time to return to work, which is so stressful this year, let alone especially this week of TAKS testing.....and my husband has to load his pickup and leave for the week. It's a routine for us, we do this every Sunday, about the same time, and I feel so helpless and weak whenever he drives off. I wake up ready to go on Monday, but right now, I just hate this empty feeling that it leaves me with. Sometimes I want to scream "WHY?" and other times I just rejoice and think "Thank you for this wonderful opportunity God!" But it's still hard! Jeremy and I, honestly, know nothing other than distance in our relationship. We have been "together" for 10 years now and our relationship has always had some distance whether it was college, while I was in high school, harvest in the summers while I was in summer school, and now it's only him being away during the week 3 hours away. But it's hard! As I listen to the song "Homesick" I just keep repeating the line "Won't you give me strength, to make it through somehow" and it seems to make me feel better. I feel like a little baby, bawling the way that I do when I hear his pick up leave. It's even harder with a toddler wondering what's wrong with you, so I always try to go to another room to get myself together for her sake. More than anything, I just pray that God just keeps our Marriage strong and our faith in HIM even stronger. HE is the only reason we have survived these difficult distance obstacles, and I am ever so grateful!