Knots........

For the past week now, I've had horrible sharp stomach pains. I'm pretty sure we can all sum that up to one thing- STRESS!!

Summer school is in full swing, and I LOVE it! I know I'm going to love that extra paycheck, even more! It goes by super fast- it's still allowing my girls their structured morning at their school, and also giving them time with friends!

I've never been more torn, more stressed in my entire life over a decision. I feel as if Jeremy will make his decision today, since the corporate office called yesterday leaving a voicemail with the official offer. The offer is the exact same as he is making here, then all the added benefits. They offered him exactly what he said he would be willing to go for.

As for me and my job; that's very debatable at this point. There has been a door slightly cracked open- but nothing has been completely opened yet. I never thought this was going to come so soon and there is still lots of decisions to be made. Housing, start dates, resignations, etc. So, as always- continue to lift us up in prayer as we feel that God is calling Jeremy to this job.

I finally his my breaking point last night. There's just something about your momma that can get it out of you and you can finally release everything that you feel. I wanted to scream, I wanted to cuss, I wished I had never ever came here this past year. I have experienced the absolute most wonderful work place with the most professional boss. Just like kids crave structure- I crave professionalism. It was wonderful to dress up, every day. Not one day were jeans and t-shirts worn; jogging suits; sweatpants; etc. I'm a firm believer in - how you dress- impacts your day at work. You dress up- you step up. You dress down- your work goes down. For once in the past 6 years- I was never angry from February through April because I wanted to kill someone over TAKS/STAAR. I also never once came home mad, angry, upset, or wished I didn' thave to go to work the next day. I cried in  May because it was coming to an end and I wasn't ready. I love this place.

Little did I know; that God would come knocking.

People are going to talk, brainstorm, and create their own stories; regardless. Make it known that I am not a failure and neither is my husband. He has topped off his salary here- and he is just now 30. What he is going to there is his beginning pay- and is a promotable position with guranteed raises. You always have to look up and keep pressing forward in our opinions. Neither of us agree that he wasn't going to go any further professionally here. I just wish I could move my job-  there.

My devotional this morning though said" I am creating something new in you: a bubbling spring of Joy that spills over into others' lives. Do not mistake this Joy for your own or try to take credit for it in anyway. Instead, watch in delight as My spirit flows through you to bless others. Let yourself become a reservoir of the Spirit's fruit. Your part is to live close to Me, open to ALL that I am doing in you. Don't try to control the streaming of my Spirit through you. Just keep focusing on Me as we walk through this day together. Enjoy my presence, which permeates you with Love, joy and peace!"

So, God is creating. He is either creating me something that I have no idea about; or he's creating a new attitude in me that needs to change before this move takes place. I have to place my trust in him that he knows what he is doing and has something even greater for me in store.

Pray for peace my friends!