Changes....

Changes....who likes them? NO ONE! No one likes change!? Mainly because we know that anything in life that is a change, probably requires our inner self to change somewhat and be a little more open minded to what lies ahead.

Looking back over this school year, Jeremy and I made a huge decision to pull Jaylee out of daycare and put her with a private sitter. Oh what a hard decision! I lost many hours of sleep, and spent many many weeks praying and debating over what we were going to do with Jaylee. Her current daycare was going fine, it just wasn't "great". I wasn't seeing improvements in Jaylee like I felt I should. I tried really really hard to sit back, and view things from every angle, but once the digression began, I knew something had to be done! I randomly started generating names of ladies in my head, and this one lady kept popping up and kept popping up! I kept thinking though, "What in the world would she want my child for!? She already has 4 of her own!" I was so nervous sending her that e-mail, and never ever expected her response to be yes. But, I wanted to atleast tell myself that I did try and I did ask, so I could eliminate another name off my wanted list! Anyways, I waited and waited for a response....and after a week of waiting, I almost gave up on her response. I thought to myself "Why is she not answering me? Oh- that's right-- I really was crazy thinking she wanted my child on top of mothering her own 4, plus her husband!" Ha! So-- something inside of me told me to ask her one more time-- so of course--over eager Brittany did- and I got an immediate response of "Let me talk to my husband, and let you know!" At 6 Am that next morning, I got a cell phone text from my e-mail saying "I would love to keep Jaylee!" It was hard telling our current sitter goodbye, but something inside of me told me to just stay strong, stay positive, and things would be O-K! I know you are probably thinking "Good grief--What a controlling mother" and I am-- I'll admit. I am OCD, Anal Retentive, and Johnny on the Spot with wanting attention! However, looking back now over the past 10 months, I couldn't have asked for a better "change" in my family's life! Jaylee LOVES her Miss Robin and loves turning the corner everyday to get to her house. She loves to get out of the carseat, run around the car, and run right up to her open arms. I don't know of one single day in 10 months that Jaylee has wanted to leave her house when I go to pick her up. It's almost a fight to get her into my car-- to the point I almost worry that Miss Robin might have to call CPS b/c my child doesn't want to go with her own mother! Even on Saturday's and Sunday's we have to take "Attendance" and talk about all the members of "Miss Robin's" family and guess about what they might be doing. Jaylee gets to go places, see faces, and have experiences that she didn't get to at daycare. Over the past 10 months, we have learned to speak in complete sentences, know our basic colors and shapes, and many many songs that she loves to sing and irritate some with! She also has learned to be polite and say "Yes, No, Thank you, and Please" Miss Robin cares for Jaylee as if she is her very own, and probably better than her own sometimes (LOL!) We love the "circus" at Robin's house and are glad that she accepts and loves our little clown/monkey! All in all, we are very thankful that God put this change in our life!