Housing is currently on hold right now. We are basically at a fork in the road; and undecided as to what to do. As much as I LOVE LOVE LOVE my job, and want my children to go through this school system- it's not worth diving into financially for this housing market. I'm having a very hard time trying to understand God and his will for us. I've prayed and prayed and prayed and still have no clear sign. Just as soon as I feel like we are onto something- we hit another speed bump- and it sets us back to ground zero.
So, if you have time, please say some prayers for us. Whether it's his will to move us here to another home, or to another town- we only want what HE wants us to do. As clear cut as the signs were for us to move here- our feeling is that HE would not lead us this far and then quit. I know he has a special place, prepared just for us; I'm just impatient.
Friday, April 26, 2013
Thursday, April 18, 2013
I'm MAD, I'm ANGRY, I'm UPSET, I'm CONFUSED!
Well, as the good ol' saying goes- "ALL GOOD THINGS, MUST END". And, as many times as this happens, I still HATE it when it happens.
Many of you are aware that our current housing situation is just down in the pits. Although we were graciously given this FREE home, it definitely has been one of those "you get what you pay for" kind of deals. The location of my home is far from luxurious. Disgusting is probably the best adjective I could use currently. Yes, it is a roof (somewhat- sure does rattle when the wind blows- this is why most mobile homes have TIRES on their roofs!) over my head, and it does have us a bedroom to sleep in, and it does have running water and electricity. Yet, I don't feel that it's ungrateful of us to want better for ourselves when we worked hard for our college degrees and worked to better ourselves professionally.
We were notified yesterday that in TWO WEEKS we are to notify the school of a yes or no answer regarding our request of keeping or leaving the current house. Aside from being CONFUSED as to why I'm given a TWO WEEK decision to make- I'm just down right- pissed. When I first accepted the job here, and got moved in, everything was so sweet and sugar coated. Yet, as I've gotten to the center of this lollipop- I'm realizing that all good things are coming to an end- and it's coming fast. I was notifed that my rent will be going up to $550/ month, plus a $500 deposit is needed as well. Ha! If that isn't a joke. A deposit? After I've been living there a YEAR? Then, you want to charge me $550 for rent as a "courtesy" to help all us new teachers out- yet we are expected to save something for a mortgage on a $250,000 house that isn't worth 50,000 in reality. Can I get an AMEN?
Yes, I was well aware that rent would be requested after the year was up- little did I know that we would be slammed an oilfield rent price on a teacher salary! Some say that I have a husband that works in the oilfield- and yes, this is true. However- what bout these single teachers that are having to foot this $550, alone, on a teacher salary? How fair is that? And let's be realistic- it's a frickin (sp) trailer house in the ghetto! Yes, the ghetto.
Why is it the ghetto? Just this past Thursday, as I was trying to grill some supper- and the girls were playing in their cubicle of a sandlot/yard....I opened the front door to find two black men on my doorstep begging me for money. Much to my luck- I have a dog that doesn't like strangers- and was saved by her raging bark/chase. I also have drunken neighbors who have festivities at all hours of the night, and all days of the week. I have people who fly by my house at50+ miles an hour- in a 15mph zone. I have trash sitting all around my house because of lazy worthless government abusers not picking up after themselves. I have lovely, Tejano music blaring at all hours of the night. I have a train that shakes my house, hourly. THIS DEFINES GHETTO!
So, I'm Mad, I'm angry, I'm upset, and definitely confused. I have no idea what we are going to do. If I knew 100% that I will live here forever, or just as long as my kids graduate- then I'd jump right off into it. But- you have to really look into our situation to understand. Oilfield can crash at any moment. It's already happened here- 3 times actually. Plus, after Jeremy's boss' wreck this past fall- and the current trial being held- anything could happen. We have really been leaning towards the "ready built/double wide" type house for the sole reason of our gypsy lifestyle. If we do a move in, and do not brick it- and leave the original siding on it- we can infact move it out if we were to have to move/transfer/etc.
So, I'm really, really torn currently. I have been dreading this day since the day I moved in. I knew this day was coming. I really believed that I would have transitioned into something else by now, but that's just not the case. If you have any spare moments during prayer time- please say one for us. This is definitely a frustrating situation and I'm ready to have it solved.
Many of you are aware that our current housing situation is just down in the pits. Although we were graciously given this FREE home, it definitely has been one of those "you get what you pay for" kind of deals. The location of my home is far from luxurious. Disgusting is probably the best adjective I could use currently. Yes, it is a roof (somewhat- sure does rattle when the wind blows- this is why most mobile homes have TIRES on their roofs!) over my head, and it does have us a bedroom to sleep in, and it does have running water and electricity. Yet, I don't feel that it's ungrateful of us to want better for ourselves when we worked hard for our college degrees and worked to better ourselves professionally.
We were notified yesterday that in TWO WEEKS we are to notify the school of a yes or no answer regarding our request of keeping or leaving the current house. Aside from being CONFUSED as to why I'm given a TWO WEEK decision to make- I'm just down right- pissed. When I first accepted the job here, and got moved in, everything was so sweet and sugar coated. Yet, as I've gotten to the center of this lollipop- I'm realizing that all good things are coming to an end- and it's coming fast. I was notifed that my rent will be going up to $550/ month, plus a $500 deposit is needed as well. Ha! If that isn't a joke. A deposit? After I've been living there a YEAR? Then, you want to charge me $550 for rent as a "courtesy" to help all us new teachers out- yet we are expected to save something for a mortgage on a $250,000 house that isn't worth 50,000 in reality. Can I get an AMEN?
Yes, I was well aware that rent would be requested after the year was up- little did I know that we would be slammed an oilfield rent price on a teacher salary! Some say that I have a husband that works in the oilfield- and yes, this is true. However- what bout these single teachers that are having to foot this $550, alone, on a teacher salary? How fair is that? And let's be realistic- it's a frickin (sp) trailer house in the ghetto! Yes, the ghetto.
Why is it the ghetto? Just this past Thursday, as I was trying to grill some supper- and the girls were playing in their cubicle of a sandlot/yard....I opened the front door to find two black men on my doorstep begging me for money. Much to my luck- I have a dog that doesn't like strangers- and was saved by her raging bark/chase. I also have drunken neighbors who have festivities at all hours of the night, and all days of the week. I have people who fly by my house at50+ miles an hour- in a 15mph zone. I have trash sitting all around my house because of lazy worthless government abusers not picking up after themselves. I have lovely, Tejano music blaring at all hours of the night. I have a train that shakes my house, hourly. THIS DEFINES GHETTO!
So, I'm Mad, I'm angry, I'm upset, and definitely confused. I have no idea what we are going to do. If I knew 100% that I will live here forever, or just as long as my kids graduate- then I'd jump right off into it. But- you have to really look into our situation to understand. Oilfield can crash at any moment. It's already happened here- 3 times actually. Plus, after Jeremy's boss' wreck this past fall- and the current trial being held- anything could happen. We have really been leaning towards the "ready built/double wide" type house for the sole reason of our gypsy lifestyle. If we do a move in, and do not brick it- and leave the original siding on it- we can infact move it out if we were to have to move/transfer/etc.
So, I'm really, really torn currently. I have been dreading this day since the day I moved in. I knew this day was coming. I really believed that I would have transitioned into something else by now, but that's just not the case. If you have any spare moments during prayer time- please say one for us. This is definitely a frustrating situation and I'm ready to have it solved.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Anybody else?
Let me just start out this post by stating that I am in no way a political speaker. But, I just want to know something. Is anybody else tired of the bashing against our president? Every time I get on facebook there is always some sort of photo, thought, quote, rage, against our president. When you turn on the news it's either approval rating has gone up, or it has gone down. NO- I did not vote for this president and NO I do not care for the way he handles/addresses some things. I also don't approve of the situation our entire world is in.
HOWEVER- these are my feelings. As much time as we spend bashing, complaining, pointing the finger, etc. at him, why can we ALL not spend this time in prayer for him? I'm sure it's sure to say that none of us would want his job; or atleast I don't. I'm just tired of the lack of respect. Above anything else, he is still our president and he is still someone that we should all respect. Note- I did not say "one we have to AGREE with" If we do not "Agree" with him or his choices- then why don't we turn to prayer instead. There is that verse in James 4:2 it says "You do not have because you do not ask God." Ironic? Maybe we don't have who/what we NEED because we have turned too far from him and have quit turning to him and asking. Maybe God is trying to teach us all a lesson. Maybe he has given us the wrong- inorder to show us the need in praying for the right.
After watching the BIBLE on THC for those few weeks, I learned that, bottom line, IF YOU FOLLOW GOD- GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU. Therefore, instead of constantly worrying about "what this world is coming to" and "what will he think of next" and so forth- why not spend that worry time in prayer time with God? Maybe then he will start to answer our prayers and truly then give us what we need. Yet, do we really "need" a president whenever we already have the one and only KING we will ever need?
Just my thoughts!
HOWEVER- these are my feelings. As much time as we spend bashing, complaining, pointing the finger, etc. at him, why can we ALL not spend this time in prayer for him? I'm sure it's sure to say that none of us would want his job; or atleast I don't. I'm just tired of the lack of respect. Above anything else, he is still our president and he is still someone that we should all respect. Note- I did not say "one we have to AGREE with" If we do not "Agree" with him or his choices- then why don't we turn to prayer instead. There is that verse in James 4:2 it says "You do not have because you do not ask God." Ironic? Maybe we don't have who/what we NEED because we have turned too far from him and have quit turning to him and asking. Maybe God is trying to teach us all a lesson. Maybe he has given us the wrong- inorder to show us the need in praying for the right.
After watching the BIBLE on THC for those few weeks, I learned that, bottom line, IF YOU FOLLOW GOD- GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU. Therefore, instead of constantly worrying about "what this world is coming to" and "what will he think of next" and so forth- why not spend that worry time in prayer time with God? Maybe then he will start to answer our prayers and truly then give us what we need. Yet, do we really "need" a president whenever we already have the one and only KING we will ever need?
Just my thoughts!
My new best friend.....her name is SOMA!
SOMA is my new found friend. I stumbled upon this store during holiday shopping, and really splurged on my Mom, Mother-in-law, and MiMi for Christmas. I did, however, stash the gift receipt with these pajama's as well, because spending that amount in the pajama department, is not worth wasting any money over.
Since then, all 3 of them have said how much they love their pajama's. So, I finally decided to splurge on myself, and buy some for myself! Oooo lala..... ladies, you will NOT be disappointed. You will in fact go back and probably buy you another pair. They're THAT amazing! The picture here is the purchase that I made. (Sorry it's someone else- I'm no model when it comes to pj's!)
Upon making my purchase, and loving them so much, Judy (my m-i-l) decided to hit up Soma this weekend.My friend Marge has been telling me about these amazing, vanishing panty line panties that soma makes. They never ride, never move, they are simply STUCK in place. They have this rubber lining that sticks to your buns, and they never move. We got suckered into the Buy 3 get 2 free deal, however, they still came out to almost $10 each. Yikes! I know that is alot for one pair, however, I would not lie to you girls! It's WORTH it. After 2 days of wearing them, I'm hooked. You actually cannot even tell that you have anything on, but yet gives you a feeling like your all covered up as well. We recently had a discussion at work regarding our undergarments and I was shocked to learn that many just go commando! DAILY! Surprising to me, yet probably not to some! As for me, I'm sticking with these rubber babies!
Not only did I buy those, we actually ended up leaving with a huge purchase of stuff. We had the best lady who made us feel super, duper comfortable and really cared about what we liked/didn't like. I ended up walking out additionally with 2 bras (surprising wearing the wrong size- darn you VS!) and a long, evening lounge type gown. LOVE IT!
One thing that I absolutely love about this place is that it's REAL. You don't walk into a store with size 2 girls, teenagers even, trying to help you. Their tiny little A's don't hold nothing to these double d's. They do not have a clue. However- soma is the opposite. Nothing is made for a size 2 model there. I call it a VS for Mom's.
So, next time you need some new undies, and you start heading back to your store for those 5 for $25, or whatever the special is, think about trying SOMA. I promise, you will LOVE it! (it may not love your bank account though :S)
Since then, all 3 of them have said how much they love their pajama's. So, I finally decided to splurge on myself, and buy some for myself! Oooo lala..... ladies, you will NOT be disappointed. You will in fact go back and probably buy you another pair. They're THAT amazing! The picture here is the purchase that I made. (Sorry it's someone else- I'm no model when it comes to pj's!)
Upon making my purchase, and loving them so much, Judy (my m-i-l) decided to hit up Soma this weekend.My friend Marge has been telling me about these amazing, vanishing panty line panties that soma makes. They never ride, never move, they are simply STUCK in place. They have this rubber lining that sticks to your buns, and they never move. We got suckered into the Buy 3 get 2 free deal, however, they still came out to almost $10 each. Yikes! I know that is alot for one pair, however, I would not lie to you girls! It's WORTH it. After 2 days of wearing them, I'm hooked. You actually cannot even tell that you have anything on, but yet gives you a feeling like your all covered up as well. We recently had a discussion at work regarding our undergarments and I was shocked to learn that many just go commando! DAILY! Surprising to me, yet probably not to some! As for me, I'm sticking with these rubber babies!
Not only did I buy those, we actually ended up leaving with a huge purchase of stuff. We had the best lady who made us feel super, duper comfortable and really cared about what we liked/didn't like. I ended up walking out additionally with 2 bras (surprising wearing the wrong size- darn you VS!) and a long, evening lounge type gown. LOVE IT!
One thing that I absolutely love about this place is that it's REAL. You don't walk into a store with size 2 girls, teenagers even, trying to help you. Their tiny little A's don't hold nothing to these double d's. They do not have a clue. However- soma is the opposite. Nothing is made for a size 2 model there. I call it a VS for Mom's.
So, next time you need some new undies, and you start heading back to your store for those 5 for $25, or whatever the special is, think about trying SOMA. I promise, you will LOVE it! (it may not love your bank account though :S)
Monday, April 15, 2013
My new outfit!
Aside from bargain shopping this weekend, we did find time to shop some of our favorite stores. I was able to find me some new spring outfits for school! Being in Canadian has taught me that Spring doesn't start in MARCH like it did back home. It's still 30 degrees here in the morning, and we are lucky to see 60 degrees by the time school is out. We are getting up to 72 today (Awesome!) but that's one of the biggest differences that I have had a hard time adjusting to!
My point in showing off my clothes is not to by any means "brag" or "show off". My point is to show working mothers out there that clothes do not have to be designer brand, or spend an entire month's paycheck on one outfit. I am a huge fan of bargain-money saving-trendy clothes!
So- here is outfit #1 that I am sporting off today! What do ya think?
Denim Jacket - (from American Eagle) = Unsure of price, it was a gift from Mother In Law 2 years ago for Christmas. EVERYONE needs denim coat- it goes with almost everything (just don't get lazy and begin to wear it with everything- I try for once every 6 weeks) Corral dress from Kohls = $22. Plus 20% off! White Merona Sandals = $15 from Target Sorry you can't see them very well- but they are super cute and go with quite alot of things!!! Long white and clear beaded necklace with matching earrings = $13 from Charming Charlies. Aside from the dress, all of the other pieces are definite multi-use accessories!
My point in showing off my clothes is not to by any means "brag" or "show off". My point is to show working mothers out there that clothes do not have to be designer brand, or spend an entire month's paycheck on one outfit. I am a huge fan of bargain-money saving-trendy clothes!
So- here is outfit #1 that I am sporting off today! What do ya think?
Denim Jacket - (from American Eagle) = Unsure of price, it was a gift from Mother In Law 2 years ago for Christmas. EVERYONE needs denim coat- it goes with almost everything (just don't get lazy and begin to wear it with everything- I try for once every 6 weeks) Corral dress from Kohls = $22. Plus 20% off! White Merona Sandals = $15 from Target Sorry you can't see them very well- but they are super cute and go with quite alot of things!!! Long white and clear beaded necklace with matching earrings = $13 from Charming Charlies. Aside from the dress, all of the other pieces are definite multi-use accessories!
Overall- I like this outfit. It is definitely "teachery" and "professional". What are your thoughts!?
BARGAINS...BARGAINS....BARGAINS!
Look at my little Tinker Bell model... isn't she cute!? I had to start out my blog post with her adorable pic! She has been begging for new dress up clothes- and so low and behold- here is what Mommy found for her this weekend. Trinkets to Treasures was NO disappointment this year! As I stated in my earlier post about our weekend- this makes the 3rd Annual trip that my mother in law and I have made to the Plano Jr. League "Trinkets to Treasures". I must say that we have so much fun, and get SO much stuff, that it's definitely WORTH going to! It just so happens that it falls on NASCAR weekend, so it's a perfect trip for our family!
So get ready for lots of pics--prices--and it's ok to drop your jaw! I did too when I stumbled across these bargains!
Up first is my FAVORITE purchase. It's a beautiful BRAND NEW printed apron. Why do I love this? First off- anyone from Duck Dynasty knows that Mrs. Kay always has her apron on. And anyone that knows me- knows that one of my favorite hobbies is cooking! So, a cook MUST have an apron. Will I wear it? Eh, probably not, but it's already hanging on display in my kitchen! I know you're shocked that it's red- but it matches my kitchen oh so perfectly!
Up next is the huge assortment of scarves that I snatched for a total amount of $1 each. Now THAT'S a bargain! I can't wait to find a coordinating outfit and start showing them off!
Although Nine West is not near as popular as some designer brands, I LOVED this purse. I got it for the total amount of $2. (It's ok to be jealous!)
Up next is one of my jaw droppers! I fell in love with this Vera Bradley makeup/travel bag. It has an elastic closure around the top, and inside is an additonal makeup bag. I can't wait for our next trip to put some goodies (I'm thinking kids medicine bag--we always travel with medicine for those "just in cases")
My next purchase wasn't any great brand, or atleast I am not aware of it, but was definitely a NECESSITY! Snow bibs for Jaylee. We experienced our first blizzard this past winter and saw the need to have these- especially when it's time to get out and play in it! I paid 75 cents for these and definitely think that I will get my money out of them!
Now here is my OMG! Many of you know that I am a lover of paisley so when I saw these I thought- for 75 cents- this will definitely be worn- especially in the summertime! So I threw them in my bag, not thinking twice about it. As I was unpacking last night- and getting pics taken to show all of you- I was looking for the brand and low and behold MICHAEL KORS! How about that!? 75 cents for an ADORABLE- looks like new --2 paisley print sleevless tops! Heck yes! Put those with a cute little cardigan and some dress pants in the winter--- Ooooo lala!
Navy just might be one of my new favorite colors. My friend Megan once upon a time sported this sailor outfit that just spilled over in Navy. I laughed at her at the time- however--Navy has began to grow on me. While I was looking through the clothing- I thought "Wow- that's a cute dress- and I like the length" Threw it in the bag as well- never thinking twice about it. Guess what? Got it home and it's Juicy Coutoure! Ah! Love it!!! Makes that 75 cents feel like 100 bucks!!! I love a bargin- and thrill over a steal!
This next one was no designer brand- but I fell in love with the majestic looking print. For 75 cents- I'll get my wear and tear out of it. Besides- it's another "Teacher outfit" (which I'm getting sick of by the way! Can you tell summer is near?)
How about this cute plaid POLO dress for my cutie patootie? Won't she look ADORABLE in this with some dressy brown sandals!?! I can't wait!
Ok- So many of you will be like "We just went from Michael Kors to this?" But yes, I couldn't resist the holiday section because my holiday decor is a bit on the slim side. Nothing makes me happier, or my heart warmer than decorating for fall and Christmas. I fell in love with these little fellas! As I sat them on the bar last night- Jentri crawled up and grabbed their noses while telling each one of them "hi....hi....hi". It was too cute! (Some were $1, others were $.50! Megan- get over it- I love snowmen/scarecrows!)
Remember sitting around after weddings and mothers wondering what in the heck will I ever do with a mussie tussie? I fell in love with this silver, intricate design and thought "bracelet holder". I can't wait to stack my bracelets on this baby and not have them stuffed inside my box taking up all my room! What do ya think? Was it worth 50 cents?
This one is black and all sparkly. Although it's probably not a beauty to some- it definitely will match many of my black and red outfits that I wear in the winter time. And for $2 for the set, can you really go wrong?
Now look at this piece.. First off-- gulp- it's GOLD! (shocker, huh?) and look at those colors and shapes of each gem. I thought this would be beautiful during those pretty fall months.... can't wait to see it on!
And let's just be honest- What's a garage sale/rummage sale without kitchen gadgets? Don't we ALL need a new gadget here and there? Look at these cute little gadgets. This whisk is the perfect size. I have a large one and a medium sized one, but this one is more medium-small size. 50 cents! Deal! The measuring spoon, after some research, were obviously given to a hostess at a wedding shower. The brand is Kate Aspen who delights herself with a website of cute little wedding favors. Still, they are very cute to me and will definitely be used in my kitchen before some hands get them and take off with them to the sand box!
Up next was my most expensive purchase- 2 quilts for my girls' bunkbeds. I spent a fortune on their bedding when we first moved in. Silly me, little did I think about dirty feet, hands, etc constantly crawling on this beautiful bedding. I was thinking strictly bed time. How many times they come in from outside and go to playing on their beds- ALOT! So- I found this set for $11 for a twin quilt and matching sham. Even if it's used- I definitely don't mind the dirt, spills, etc that will be getting on it!
On top of all of these favorites- I have a HUGE box full of fabulous finds for my classrooms. Manipulatives, counters, puzzles, toys, and books!!! I am excited to get it all unpacked and put away for my students to use!!!
So, after all of this---who's thinking about going to Trinkets to Treasures next year!?!?!
Thursday, April 11, 2013
My week thus far!
Whew! You know those weeks that you think ya ain't got much going on...then all of a sudden you have EVERYTHING going on? Yup- that would be this week!
At the start of my week I had- TPRI test on Monday.............and pack on Wednesday.....that was it.
My week then went to..... Soccer beginning (unexpectedly)...to Jaylee coming down with Strep Throat and missing 1/2 day of work, on top of fighting the nurse to get her in (they were only open 1/2 day that day) to Grades due, immediately today at school rather than Monday, and recess duty today (since I missed yesterday) and conference with my principal during my conference today to discuss TPRI. Whew! Thank goodness I thought ahead and went ahead and used my 1/2 day yesterday to pack because I had to work til 5 this eve just to get caught up/ready for work tomorrow!
Jaylee, however, is already on the mend. The Dr. told me I would see massive improvement after the first 2 doses, and he was right! Other than not being able to eat almost anything, she is back to herself! Here's to fingers double crossed in hoping that Jentri will not get it. (Have an RX on hand just in case)
This weekend, you will find us off to DFW! It's our Annual Spring Nascar Lowe trip. The boys go to the NASCAR race and the girls find themselves at a huge garage sale--- hardly call it garage sale with the quality of stuff you find there, but to each their own! The race will take place Saturday evening (Jeremy loves night races!) and we will be shopping or relaxing in the hotel with the girls! I love these trips with Jeremy's family. We always laugh a bunch, never have a true "itinerary" and we just go with it! Of course we have our traditional restaurant faves (Angelos- Cheesecake Factory- Pappadeaux-) However-- we are skipping Pappadauex this year and trying some kind of new "chop house" or other that Pa has heard about! So we shall see! I'll definitely be posting all kinds of pics of my bargains!!!
As for my TPRI this week- Wow! I am sure you are tired of hearing just how rewarding teaching 1st grade is, and aside from my littledarlings shits currently (spring fever has hit!) they blew the roof off of that test! The goal at the end of 1st grade is to have each kid reading 60 words per minute. Aside from my 3 children who see a reading interventionist, daily, every one of my kids read 60 or above. 4 of them read above 100 words a minute. I could not be prouder! I have said this once, ok ten times, and I'll say it an eleventh- 1st grade is the most rewarding grade to teach.
So, here's to the weekend! Be sure and check back for bargain posts soon!
At the start of my week I had- TPRI test on Monday.............and pack on Wednesday.....that was it.
My week then went to..... Soccer beginning (unexpectedly)...to Jaylee coming down with Strep Throat and missing 1/2 day of work, on top of fighting the nurse to get her in (they were only open 1/2 day that day) to Grades due, immediately today at school rather than Monday, and recess duty today (since I missed yesterday) and conference with my principal during my conference today to discuss TPRI. Whew! Thank goodness I thought ahead and went ahead and used my 1/2 day yesterday to pack because I had to work til 5 this eve just to get caught up/ready for work tomorrow!
Jaylee, however, is already on the mend. The Dr. told me I would see massive improvement after the first 2 doses, and he was right! Other than not being able to eat almost anything, she is back to herself! Here's to fingers double crossed in hoping that Jentri will not get it. (Have an RX on hand just in case)
This weekend, you will find us off to DFW! It's our Annual Spring Nascar Lowe trip. The boys go to the NASCAR race and the girls find themselves at a huge garage sale--- hardly call it garage sale with the quality of stuff you find there, but to each their own! The race will take place Saturday evening (Jeremy loves night races!) and we will be shopping or relaxing in the hotel with the girls! I love these trips with Jeremy's family. We always laugh a bunch, never have a true "itinerary" and we just go with it! Of course we have our traditional restaurant faves (Angelos- Cheesecake Factory- Pappadeaux-) However-- we are skipping Pappadauex this year and trying some kind of new "chop house" or other that Pa has heard about! So we shall see! I'll definitely be posting all kinds of pics of my bargains!!!
As for my TPRI this week- Wow! I am sure you are tired of hearing just how rewarding teaching 1st grade is, and aside from my little
So, here's to the weekend! Be sure and check back for bargain posts soon!
Monday, April 8, 2013
Friday, April 5, 2013
His plan.....NOT mine!
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." ~Jeremiah 29:11
This verse is what I prayed, daily, through my entire process of moving. From the day I applied for the job, to the day of driving up for the interview, for the long waiting process of knowing whether I got a job. God laid everything out for us, there's no denying it.
However, with the crazy, busy life we live....it's so hard to focus my eyes on HIM. I'm so tired....I'm weak....I'm torn. My struggle is trying to even find time to pray with him. I do listen, for 2 hours, daily to my KLove station in my room- and they say that "singing is like praying twice" I'm able to still multi-task- and work on lesson plans- yet praise him amongst it all.
It seems as if when I get the most "caught up" in life, or when I'm the busiest, and I get the most irritated with our living situation....I hear a voice saying out of James 4:2 Brittany, "You have not, because you ask not"
OUCH! Is God testing me? He has given me so much this past year, yet here I am, wanting MORE again, but am too busy to just shut my eyes and ASK?
Let me give you just a glimpse of yesterday- 5:40- Alarm--- out the door at 7:35 (that's LATE for us)- back at home at 4-- clean house, sweep, mop, vacuum dust, 5:00- go pick up girls, Play with them until 6:30. Then go and pickup supper (it was pizza hut night!), then wash the dishes, bathe the girls, read a story, do Jentri's facial treatment (I'm trying a new product on her eczema....I'll blog later about this), then talk to hubby while rocking a baby, then go lay down with Jaylee, then go to my bed...at 10:30. Only to hear Jentri wake right back up. Back up until 11:00...... got her back down....then back up at 11:15..... I looked up and said "lord, please help me!". Jentri slept the rest of the night.
No- this isn't a beg for a pity party. I'm just pointing out that I am so guilty of getting so caught up in life, that I forget to look up faithfully-daily and just ASK. I often speak to God when I'm laying in bed- and although it's rather rude to fall asleep while praying- I've found that I'm most peaceful when I'm at rest, talking to God and I have felt as if I do fall asleep- it was God giving me the peace to rest. Is that wrong?
So, that's where I'm at with my housing issue. I got caught up with the train this morning, two of them mind you, after leaving at 7:40 from the house (back to that "timing" thing I am struggling with in my Year Seven post). My house shakes, every hour/half-hour that it comes by, it rarely wakes the kids up, but noone wants to come visit because they aren't used to it and they can't sleep. It's just rather annoying. However, I am very thankful to be in a house, that has been free, and has definitely supplied us with our NEED of a house. For this, I am grateful.
This verse is what I prayed, daily, through my entire process of moving. From the day I applied for the job, to the day of driving up for the interview, for the long waiting process of knowing whether I got a job. God laid everything out for us, there's no denying it.
However, with the crazy, busy life we live....it's so hard to focus my eyes on HIM. I'm so tired....I'm weak....I'm torn. My struggle is trying to even find time to pray with him. I do listen, for 2 hours, daily to my KLove station in my room- and they say that "singing is like praying twice" I'm able to still multi-task- and work on lesson plans- yet praise him amongst it all.
It seems as if when I get the most "caught up" in life, or when I'm the busiest, and I get the most irritated with our living situation....I hear a voice saying out of James 4:2 Brittany, "You have not, because you ask not"
OUCH! Is God testing me? He has given me so much this past year, yet here I am, wanting MORE again, but am too busy to just shut my eyes and ASK?
Let me give you just a glimpse of yesterday- 5:40- Alarm--- out the door at 7:35 (that's LATE for us)- back at home at 4-- clean house, sweep, mop, vacuum dust, 5:00- go pick up girls, Play with them until 6:30. Then go and pickup supper (it was pizza hut night!), then wash the dishes, bathe the girls, read a story, do Jentri's facial treatment (I'm trying a new product on her eczema....I'll blog later about this), then talk to hubby while rocking a baby, then go lay down with Jaylee, then go to my bed...at 10:30. Only to hear Jentri wake right back up. Back up until 11:00...... got her back down....then back up at 11:15..... I looked up and said "lord, please help me!". Jentri slept the rest of the night.
No- this isn't a beg for a pity party. I'm just pointing out that I am so guilty of getting so caught up in life, that I forget to look up faithfully-daily and just ASK. I often speak to God when I'm laying in bed- and although it's rather rude to fall asleep while praying- I've found that I'm most peaceful when I'm at rest, talking to God and I have felt as if I do fall asleep- it was God giving me the peace to rest. Is that wrong?
So, that's where I'm at with my housing issue. I got caught up with the train this morning, two of them mind you, after leaving at 7:40 from the house (back to that "timing" thing I am struggling with in my Year Seven post). My house shakes, every hour/half-hour that it comes by, it rarely wakes the kids up, but noone wants to come visit because they aren't used to it and they can't sleep. It's just rather annoying. However, I am very thankful to be in a house, that has been free, and has definitely supplied us with our NEED of a house. For this, I am grateful.
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Top 10 Reasons......
Top 10 Reasons Why I Love First Grade......
10. First graders have a very unique view of the world. They are extremely observant little human beings, and they notice everything. They are like sponges, soaking up all the stimuli around them, and it is amazing the things they tell me aboutl-- what it's like at home, their adventures at Wal-Mart, what Mom/Dad are up to (sometimes TMI). Most everything that goes on in their little worlds is so innocent and fresh, and to be able to laugh and think like a child with them keeps me younger still!
9. . First graders have ENTHUSIASM! I am obsessed with the fact that they get just as excited as I do about new sight words, the weather changing on our graph, AR Reward Friday, or new phonics rules. I can always count on them to be enthusiastic about what we do, and the thing is, I honestly really DO love knowing and teaching anything new. So it makes me happy that they care too!
8. Everyday is an up-and-down rollercoaster adventure. You cannot predict what will happen one day to the next. My team teachers in first grade and I are always sharing stories about our days during lunch and conference. The stories and ongoings of our crazy days rattle off and never seem to end for any of us. Whether a student threw up on the carpet , or they tricked a substitutue, or they acted out and yelled "INCOMING" for the substitute and took cover under their desks as if they were being bombed (yes, this happened!). Each day holds a new challenge or test of its own. But we are more than conquerors.
7. . HUGS hugs HUGS hugs HUGS... all. day. long. The amount of hugs I get is insane. It always makes me slow down and stop to count blessings when I'm going going going and then one of my students gets up in the middle of the lesson or activity and I go, "Where should you be? What are you doing?" and they just come towards me and wrap their arms around me. I immediately realize that they just want to show me they love me and that they care, and they are happy to embrace me. It helps me to calm down and realize that what I do is so much more than just cramming in 4 subject areas into our schedule each day, and it always makes my heart better than it was the moment before the hug.
6.First graders are hilarious. They do things like mispelling words, and accidentally spelling a cuss word (this makes me LOL!) .... Or they do things like take TPRI testing materials, such as letters to make and complete a word on a task sheet, and make them dance or choo-choo train to their places. They constantly crack you up because they have no idea about social cues yet, so they just do whatever they want, and everyone thinks it's ok. Like when they meow like cats at recess, or care too much about what's on TV. It's okay to everyone, and quite entertaining for me.
5. Acting/Singing/Dancing- my first graders LOVE brain breaks. I love to get the cha cha slide going, the Gangnam Style, or the Cha Cha Chicken Bok and it's totally normal to get jiggy with it. I love how I can bust out a song like "that's the way...uh huh uh huh..." and they just chime right in and start dancing because they are so excited. I love how they like to dance with each other, girls and boys, because at this age, it's still FUN to be friends with the opposite sex!
4. PLEASERS- First graders LOVE LOVE LOVE to please their teacher like none other grade level. They look to me as if I am their mother and love to do everything right to get that little bit of appreciation/reward. Their hormones are not even close to kicking in, there aren't any attitudes involved, they just love to please all of their teachers- and this makes me proud!
3. RESPONSIBLE- First graders can wipe their nose, their butts, and require no help/assistance. I don't have to heard "Mrs. Lowe- I need help wiping!" or they come up to my desk with boogers running down their nose and into their mouths--- NOPE---not in 1st grade. They are very aware of the tissue box and where it is located and HOW to use it!
2. Mountain Climbers- First Grade is by far the most rewarding grade to teach that I have found, thus far. The mountains that these kids climb and achieve is skyrocketing! They amaze me more and more each day with how much they achieve. To come in on day 1, even the whole week 1 and struggle putting ABC's in order, or identifying a vowel/consonant....yet they are already reading past the 60 words per minute mark. It's almost like a light bulb effect and each kid turns it on at different times of the year. Some before Christmas, some after, some right about February, and a bunch after Spring Break. Once they realize they are "reading" they kick in a sense of passion for it- and feel a sense of pride- and there is no turning back! It's amazing to see how far they come in just 180 days together.
1. LOVE. I get to tell my students I love them every single day. I tell kids all day long, but I love how I hug them each afternoon as I put them in their car and before I can even say the words- I get to hear "I love you Mrs. Lowe"- Ah! The feeling that gives, is undescribable! I try to make it a goal to praise my kids and celebrate each day that they come to school. It's a miracle and a blessing that they are there. Sandy Hook had a huge impact on me- especially the 27 year old 1st grade teacher who hid her kids in a closet and took the bullet....... my daily outlook on my job has changed tremendously- and not a day goes by that I do not tell my kids that I love them- because I DO!
10. First graders have a very unique view of the world. They are extremely observant little human beings, and they notice everything. They are like sponges, soaking up all the stimuli around them, and it is amazing the things they tell me aboutl-- what it's like at home, their adventures at Wal-Mart, what Mom/Dad are up to (sometimes TMI). Most everything that goes on in their little worlds is so innocent and fresh, and to be able to laugh and think like a child with them keeps me younger still!
9. . First graders have ENTHUSIASM! I am obsessed with the fact that they get just as excited as I do about new sight words, the weather changing on our graph, AR Reward Friday, or new phonics rules. I can always count on them to be enthusiastic about what we do, and the thing is, I honestly really DO love knowing and teaching anything new. So it makes me happy that they care too!
8. Everyday is an up-and-down rollercoaster adventure. You cannot predict what will happen one day to the next. My team teachers in first grade and I are always sharing stories about our days during lunch and conference. The stories and ongoings of our crazy days rattle off and never seem to end for any of us. Whether a student threw up on the carpet , or they tricked a substitutue, or they acted out and yelled "INCOMING" for the substitute and took cover under their desks as if they were being bombed (yes, this happened!). Each day holds a new challenge or test of its own. But we are more than conquerors.
7. . HUGS hugs HUGS hugs HUGS... all. day. long. The amount of hugs I get is insane. It always makes me slow down and stop to count blessings when I'm going going going and then one of my students gets up in the middle of the lesson or activity and I go, "Where should you be? What are you doing?" and they just come towards me and wrap their arms around me. I immediately realize that they just want to show me they love me and that they care, and they are happy to embrace me. It helps me to calm down and realize that what I do is so much more than just cramming in 4 subject areas into our schedule each day, and it always makes my heart better than it was the moment before the hug.
6.First graders are hilarious. They do things like mispelling words, and accidentally spelling a cuss word (this makes me LOL!) .... Or they do things like take TPRI testing materials, such as letters to make and complete a word on a task sheet, and make them dance or choo-choo train to their places. They constantly crack you up because they have no idea about social cues yet, so they just do whatever they want, and everyone thinks it's ok. Like when they meow like cats at recess, or care too much about what's on TV. It's okay to everyone, and quite entertaining for me.
5. Acting/Singing/Dancing- my first graders LOVE brain breaks. I love to get the cha cha slide going, the Gangnam Style, or the Cha Cha Chicken Bok and it's totally normal to get jiggy with it. I love how I can bust out a song like "that's the way...uh huh uh huh..." and they just chime right in and start dancing because they are so excited. I love how they like to dance with each other, girls and boys, because at this age, it's still FUN to be friends with the opposite sex!
4. PLEASERS- First graders LOVE LOVE LOVE to please their teacher like none other grade level. They look to me as if I am their mother and love to do everything right to get that little bit of appreciation/reward. Their hormones are not even close to kicking in, there aren't any attitudes involved, they just love to please all of their teachers- and this makes me proud!
3. RESPONSIBLE- First graders can wipe their nose, their butts, and require no help/assistance. I don't have to heard "Mrs. Lowe- I need help wiping!" or they come up to my desk with boogers running down their nose and into their mouths--- NOPE---not in 1st grade. They are very aware of the tissue box and where it is located and HOW to use it!
2. Mountain Climbers- First Grade is by far the most rewarding grade to teach that I have found, thus far. The mountains that these kids climb and achieve is skyrocketing! They amaze me more and more each day with how much they achieve. To come in on day 1, even the whole week 1 and struggle putting ABC's in order, or identifying a vowel/consonant....yet they are already reading past the 60 words per minute mark. It's almost like a light bulb effect and each kid turns it on at different times of the year. Some before Christmas, some after, some right about February, and a bunch after Spring Break. Once they realize they are "reading" they kick in a sense of passion for it- and feel a sense of pride- and there is no turning back! It's amazing to see how far they come in just 180 days together.
1. LOVE. I get to tell my students I love them every single day. I tell kids all day long, but I love how I hug them each afternoon as I put them in their car and before I can even say the words- I get to hear "I love you Mrs. Lowe"- Ah! The feeling that gives, is undescribable! I try to make it a goal to praise my kids and celebrate each day that they come to school. It's a miracle and a blessing that they are there. Sandy Hook had a huge impact on me- especially the 27 year old 1st grade teacher who hid her kids in a closet and took the bullet....... my daily outlook on my job has changed tremendously- and not a day goes by that I do not tell my kids that I love them- because I DO!
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Year Seven
I've often heard that "Seventh year of marriage is the hardest", but have always told myself "whatever- anything can be hard, but you have to get over it". However, I am here today, to admit, that indeed my friends, I have found truth in the saying.
This year of our marriage, has been far from perfect. To be brutally honest- it's been rough. Yes, we have moved to Canadian, I have such a better job, my kids are on the way to a better/higher education, the girls see their Daddy-everyday. But all of this is good, fine, and well, yet our marriage has seemed to struggle. It has been quite the adjustment of living, full time, with each other- and not only that but with two kids. Many of you know that distance was always a part of our relationship, and now that is no longer the case. When he used to come home from harvest, we'd always have a few weeks that were rough adjusting, and have one big fight, and then we were good. Now, it seems as if the arguing continues, and nothing is changing.
Our biggest struggle is hearing and understanding each other. Men are such simple minded human beings. Women on the other hand are completely opposite. It definitely is causing some tension and I'm trying very hard to deal/handle with it. Another problem is we have two kids now. Before kids we could beat to our own drums.....and now it's turned into us beating to the kids' drums. It's such a daily struggle.
After having kids- in some ways, it has deepened who we are as a couple. I have learned to love Jeremy in a way that I didn’t love him before our kids were born. I love him more because there is more OF him to love. Jaylee and Jentri are extensions of mine and his love. They are our love in the flesh. So, because I love them, I am able to love him more deeply than I did before. But, don't be mistaken- it's HARD. I am hard to love- and am very well aware of it.
If you were to see us in public you probably also wouldn't say "they are having problems". But, this wall is crumbling down. I'm tried of the struggle. I'm tired of the pretending. Most importantly- I'm TIRED.
I'm just confused. I'm tired of this feeling. I'm tired of wondering. I'm tired of begging for help. Bottom line- I'M TIRED. I feel as if our marriage is no longer top priority, to us. I feel as if our kids and our jobs are coming first. After both of us working full time jobs, plus being parents, then me trying to upkeep the house- how much would anyone have left for their spouse at the end of the day? It's tough. It's hard.
I have never been one to sugar coat things- or pretend as if everything is just a field of daisies. I hate people who daily/hourly talk about their "happy life" and "my sweet spouse this or that". If things were so great/grand...... why would you have to tell everyone? Wouldn't they be able to see it by your actions/body language instead?" A very wise person once told me- people will see you the happiest, when you tell them the least....it isn't about telling the world....it's about showing the world".
So- there's my daily spill. I'm struggling, We're struggling, and prayerfully things will get better. Knowing that other marriages struggle at the 7 year mark is what's getting me through at this point.
This year of our marriage, has been far from perfect. To be brutally honest- it's been rough. Yes, we have moved to Canadian, I have such a better job, my kids are on the way to a better/higher education, the girls see their Daddy-everyday. But all of this is good, fine, and well, yet our marriage has seemed to struggle. It has been quite the adjustment of living, full time, with each other- and not only that but with two kids. Many of you know that distance was always a part of our relationship, and now that is no longer the case. When he used to come home from harvest, we'd always have a few weeks that were rough adjusting, and have one big fight, and then we were good. Now, it seems as if the arguing continues, and nothing is changing.
Our biggest struggle is hearing and understanding each other. Men are such simple minded human beings. Women on the other hand are completely opposite. It definitely is causing some tension and I'm trying very hard to deal/handle with it. Another problem is we have two kids now. Before kids we could beat to our own drums.....and now it's turned into us beating to the kids' drums. It's such a daily struggle.
After having kids- in some ways, it has deepened who we are as a couple. I have learned to love Jeremy in a way that I didn’t love him before our kids were born. I love him more because there is more OF him to love. Jaylee and Jentri are extensions of mine and his love. They are our love in the flesh. So, because I love them, I am able to love him more deeply than I did before. But, don't be mistaken- it's HARD. I am hard to love- and am very well aware of it.
If you were to see us in public you probably also wouldn't say "they are having problems". But, this wall is crumbling down. I'm tried of the struggle. I'm tired of the pretending. Most importantly- I'm TIRED.
I'm just confused. I'm tired of this feeling. I'm tired of wondering. I'm tired of begging for help. Bottom line- I'M TIRED. I feel as if our marriage is no longer top priority, to us. I feel as if our kids and our jobs are coming first. After both of us working full time jobs, plus being parents, then me trying to upkeep the house- how much would anyone have left for their spouse at the end of the day? It's tough. It's hard.
I have never been one to sugar coat things- or pretend as if everything is just a field of daisies. I hate people who daily/hourly talk about their "happy life" and "my sweet spouse this or that". If things were so great/grand...... why would you have to tell everyone? Wouldn't they be able to see it by your actions/body language instead?" A very wise person once told me- people will see you the happiest, when you tell them the least....it isn't about telling the world....it's about showing the world".
So- there's my daily spill. I'm struggling, We're struggling, and prayerfully things will get better. Knowing that other marriages struggle at the 7 year mark is what's getting me through at this point.
Easter 2013
Here are some of my favorite Easter pictures! As you can see--- Jaylee Ray is growing up! And, I can't leave Jentri out- but as you can tell from all the facebook pictures- she's quite the mess-- but such a joy!! Easter is my favorite holiday--yes, I love it more than Christmas!
Monday, April 1, 2013
If I ever asked you to describe my husband, Jeremy, you probably would not put "a bible thumper" as one of the top descriptors. I would think you would label "christian" as one of them, but "one who knows his bible well" is probably not one of the top things you would say. I'll be honest- I wouldn't either. After 13 years of being together, 5 of those being married, I finally have learned something about my husband. That man---KNOWS his bible. 6 weeks ago, I randomly saw a friend post on Facebook that this new mini-series was going to be showing that evening starting at 7. Well, as many of you know, I'm not one has a very long attention span- and watching something for 2 hours, for the next 6 weeks, once a week, just wasn't very "appealing" to me. I actually had not even "planned" on watching it when it started.
However, that Sunday evening- Jeremy had just finished watching something on the history channel- and we were just finishing supper. I had the girls bathed and they were playing and looked at the clock. It was straight up 7- and I sat down with the remote and said "Why not? Let's try it!"
Here I am 6 weeks later, to tell you that I nor my husband NEVER missed one minute of any episode. That's how good this mini-series was. Our couples weekend--on Sunday- it was the center of our day to make it back by 7 to watch. Our Easter weekend, was focused on leaving by 4 to return home by 7. I will even share that my husband was probably more into it than I was. After the very first episode, I was left with many questions, and of course left in awe. I then started to take notice at how much my husband "knew". As the 2nd and 3rd episode showed, I became more and more in awe. My husband was telling me names and details of these events before they even happened. I was the one sitting there in dumbness. I even had to call my mom after most episodes to reconfirm and try to comprehend the details.
Last night was the final episode, and how gut-wrenching and promising it was. I bawled like a baby, and I rejoiced in the end. I have learned so much about my faith and the background of how it all happened.
Growing up- I was never shoved a bible. My church had it "all laid out" with something called a missalette and I never had to learn my "books" and recite bible stories. My CCD consisted of prayers, rituals, and goofing off. I had some horrible teachers- and I had some good ones too. From about 8th grade through confirmation---a total waste of time. What saddens me, looking back, is that I wasted all that time. On the other hand- my husband grew up in Sunday School every Sunday morning- learning his bible from front to back- and reciting those stories- to what Baptist call "bible drills". I probably can't tell you 5 times that I was handed a true "bible" in CCD and was told to flip to a book, read, and recite the story. Nope- that never happened. Now, I am not joking off my catholic religion, by any means. I admire the Catholic church and miss all the symbolism that the church entails.
However- what I don't miss is the sense of "forcefulness" and the "laziness" that comes from that. I don't want to seem as if I'm "blaming" the church for my not knowing my bible- any true christian knows that if you want to know the bible- get it out and read it yourself. Yet, I also know as a teacher, that children are at such prime ages to learn such valuable information- and I don't feel as if bible reading/reciting stories was encouraged.
Coming into the Easter Season, it always saddens me a little that I'm not catholic. I miss Easter Season in the catholic church. It's such a special time. However- I don't miss that feeling of "guilt" when you miss because your extremely ill, was up until 3 AM with a baby the night before, or whatever else. From my personal experience- I learned that it was more of an attendance factor more than anything. Yet, after converting to the Baptist faith- I've learned the EXACT opposite. I go to church because I WANT to go and I want to worship my savior. I'm not going to get a tally beside my name, or because I want the preacher to notice, or because I want someone in the congregation to notice.
Back to my topic- this mini series of The Bible. Upon watching John the Baptist baptizing many, and then watching Peter baptize last night, NOT ONCE did I ever see one infant baptized. I am very well aware of taking original sin away and that Catholics/Methodist do believe in infant baptism. However, no where in the bible does it ever state that infants have to be baptized. NOW- do not misunderstand. I am not AGAINST, IN ANY WAY, ANYONE baptizing their infants. If you want to get technical- I was baptized as an infant and believe to this day that I am a saved Christian on my way to heaven. I also can testify to say that there is nothing more angelic than seeing a pure, innocent infant being baptized. However- after seeing this series and diving into scripture- I have learned and solidified my decision all the more. The day that my girls get to testify and make their OWN decision to follow God- to get to REMEMBER their baptism-- How awesome is that? I am excited that in my new "religion" that everything is a"choice" for them to make. Nothing is forced by age, previous rituals, etc. Let me state this again- I am not FOR or AGAINST infant baptism, I don't feel that either way is the "right" way. I honestly feel that they are BOTH 100% true and meaningful and that God will accept both religions into his kingdom. As Paul ended his life last night saying "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful" To me- that's what life is all about. Not WHEN you get baptized, but how you fought your fight, how you remained faithful, and that determines your destiny.
Ok- so that's my sermon for today! If you haven't watched this- then I urge anyone to grab a copy of the DVD that comes out tomorrow- my family gives it 2 thumbs up, 5 stars, and SO MUCH MORE! You will not be disappointed- you will be REJOICING that you are promised an everlasting life in heaven!
However, that Sunday evening- Jeremy had just finished watching something on the history channel- and we were just finishing supper. I had the girls bathed and they were playing and looked at the clock. It was straight up 7- and I sat down with the remote and said "Why not? Let's try it!"
Here I am 6 weeks later, to tell you that I nor my husband NEVER missed one minute of any episode. That's how good this mini-series was. Our couples weekend--on Sunday- it was the center of our day to make it back by 7 to watch. Our Easter weekend, was focused on leaving by 4 to return home by 7. I will even share that my husband was probably more into it than I was. After the very first episode, I was left with many questions, and of course left in awe. I then started to take notice at how much my husband "knew". As the 2nd and 3rd episode showed, I became more and more in awe. My husband was telling me names and details of these events before they even happened. I was the one sitting there in dumbness. I even had to call my mom after most episodes to reconfirm and try to comprehend the details.
Last night was the final episode, and how gut-wrenching and promising it was. I bawled like a baby, and I rejoiced in the end. I have learned so much about my faith and the background of how it all happened. Growing up- I was never shoved a bible. My church had it "all laid out" with something called a missalette and I never had to learn my "books" and recite bible stories. My CCD consisted of prayers, rituals, and goofing off. I had some horrible teachers- and I had some good ones too. From about 8th grade through confirmation---a total waste of time. What saddens me, looking back, is that I wasted all that time. On the other hand- my husband grew up in Sunday School every Sunday morning- learning his bible from front to back- and reciting those stories- to what Baptist call "bible drills". I probably can't tell you 5 times that I was handed a true "bible" in CCD and was told to flip to a book, read, and recite the story. Nope- that never happened. Now, I am not joking off my catholic religion, by any means. I admire the Catholic church and miss all the symbolism that the church entails.
However- what I don't miss is the sense of "forcefulness" and the "laziness" that comes from that. I don't want to seem as if I'm "blaming" the church for my not knowing my bible- any true christian knows that if you want to know the bible- get it out and read it yourself. Yet, I also know as a teacher, that children are at such prime ages to learn such valuable information- and I don't feel as if bible reading/reciting stories was encouraged.
Coming into the Easter Season, it always saddens me a little that I'm not catholic. I miss Easter Season in the catholic church. It's such a special time. However- I don't miss that feeling of "guilt" when you miss because your extremely ill, was up until 3 AM with a baby the night before, or whatever else. From my personal experience- I learned that it was more of an attendance factor more than anything. Yet, after converting to the Baptist faith- I've learned the EXACT opposite. I go to church because I WANT to go and I want to worship my savior. I'm not going to get a tally beside my name, or because I want the preacher to notice, or because I want someone in the congregation to notice.
Back to my topic- this mini series of The Bible. Upon watching John the Baptist baptizing many, and then watching Peter baptize last night, NOT ONCE did I ever see one infant baptized. I am very well aware of taking original sin away and that Catholics/Methodist do believe in infant baptism. However, no where in the bible does it ever state that infants have to be baptized. NOW- do not misunderstand. I am not AGAINST, IN ANY WAY, ANYONE baptizing their infants. If you want to get technical- I was baptized as an infant and believe to this day that I am a saved Christian on my way to heaven. I also can testify to say that there is nothing more angelic than seeing a pure, innocent infant being baptized. However- after seeing this series and diving into scripture- I have learned and solidified my decision all the more. The day that my girls get to testify and make their OWN decision to follow God- to get to REMEMBER their baptism-- How awesome is that? I am excited that in my new "religion" that everything is a"choice" for them to make. Nothing is forced by age, previous rituals, etc. Let me state this again- I am not FOR or AGAINST infant baptism, I don't feel that either way is the "right" way. I honestly feel that they are BOTH 100% true and meaningful and that God will accept both religions into his kingdom. As Paul ended his life last night saying "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful" To me- that's what life is all about. Not WHEN you get baptized, but how you fought your fight, how you remained faithful, and that determines your destiny.
Ok- so that's my sermon for today! If you haven't watched this- then I urge anyone to grab a copy of the DVD that comes out tomorrow- my family gives it 2 thumbs up, 5 stars, and SO MUCH MORE! You will not be disappointed- you will be REJOICING that you are promised an everlasting life in heaven!
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