His plan.....NOT mine!

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." ~Jeremiah 29:11

This verse is what I prayed, daily, through my entire process of moving. From the day I applied for the job, to the day of driving up for the interview, for the long waiting process of knowing whether I got a job. God laid everything out for us, there's no denying it.

However, with the crazy, busy life we live....it's so hard to focus my eyes on HIM. I'm so tired....I'm weak....I'm torn. My struggle is trying to even find time to pray with him. I do listen, for 2 hours, daily to my KLove station in my room- and they say that "singing is like praying twice" I'm able to still multi-task- and work on lesson plans- yet praise him amongst it all.

It seems as if when I get the most "caught up" in life, or when I'm the busiest, and I get the most irritated with our living situation....I hear a voice saying out of James 4:2 Brittany, "You have not, because you ask not"

OUCH! Is God testing me? He has given me so much this past year, yet here I am, wanting MORE again, but am too busy to just shut my eyes and ASK?

Let me give you just a glimpse of yesterday- 5:40- Alarm--- out the door at 7:35 (that's LATE for us)- back at home at 4-- clean house, sweep, mop, vacuum dust, 5:00- go pick up girls, Play with them until 6:30. Then go and pickup supper (it was pizza hut night!), then wash the dishes, bathe the girls, read a story, do Jentri's facial treatment (I'm trying a new product on her eczema....I'll blog later about this), then talk to hubby while rocking a  baby, then go lay down with Jaylee, then go to my bed...at 10:30. Only to hear Jentri wake right back up. Back up until 11:00...... got her back down....then back up at 11:15..... I looked up and said "lord, please help me!". Jentri slept the rest of the night.

No- this isn't a beg for a pity party. I'm just pointing out that I am so guilty of getting so caught up in life, that I forget to look up faithfully-daily and just ASK. I often speak to God when I'm laying in bed- and although it's rather rude to fall asleep while praying- I've found that I'm most peaceful when I'm at rest, talking to God and I have felt as if I do fall asleep- it was God giving me the peace to rest. Is that wrong?

So, that's where I'm at with my housing issue. I got caught up with the train this morning, two of them mind you, after leaving at 7:40 from the house (back to that "timing" thing I am struggling with in my Year Seven post). My house shakes, every hour/half-hour that it comes by, it rarely wakes the kids up, but noone wants to come visit because they aren't used to it and they can't sleep. It's just rather annoying. However, I am very thankful to be in a house, that has been free, and has definitely supplied us with our NEED of a house. For this, I am grateful.