Beginning......

I can't even possibly begin to describe all the emotions that I'm currently feeling. Overwhelmed, stressed, anxiety would only name a few.

As many of you know, the girls and I have left Canadian. We have moved out of our school house and are currently stationed at our in-laws house while they are away for the summer on harvest. As appreciative I am of this ever so generous offer- it's tough. I don't like living in someone elses home, using someone else's things- mainly kitchen speaking. I also hate the feeling of being a bum. While everyone knows this is so not the case; it still feels like we are somewhat bums! 

We are currently waiting on Jeremy's grandmother to make take the final steps of her decision to move to a retirement center. If she does this, she is wanting us to buy her house. How I'd love to get an apartment or a rent house for the time being- but if we are talking 2 months or less in a time frame- not many landlords would be so generous of allowing a 2 month lease. So- this seemed to be our safest route of living.

I was just about at my wits end Friday afternoon. I needed my ice cream freezer, which I swear I left out of the storage section of packing and brought it here; yet nowhere to be found. So I then changed my mind from taking ice- cream to a friends house to a homemade pan of brownies and picking up a gallon of blue-bell to go on top! I get started in the kitchen (after just using vegetable oil last week, brand new bottle) and the vegetable oil is nowhere to be found. I finally wigged out on my husband. I told him how hard this was to live in someone else's home.

What people don't realize is that although this is just a very short temporary stay- the same was for our house in Canadian that the school gave us. I have been without a family home for over a year now and I am crawling in my seat. I am so ready to just have a "home". While we are enjoying every aspect of our in-laws home, it still isn't ours. My girls love playing in the yard every morning and every evening. They love the huge drive way that they spent hours on riding bicycles, scooters, and play toys. We can take wagon rides, daily, around the neighborhood because it's a very nice neighborhood, trustworthy people, PAVED roads, and no annoying trains. (It's the little things!)

As I have been very, VERY unhappy with this temporary "squat" to say; God grabbed me this morning....... read this:

July 14
Keep walking with me along the path I have chosen for you. your desire to live close to me is a delight to my heart. I could instantly grant you the spiritual riches you desire, but that is not My way for you. Together we will forge a pathway up the high mountain. The journey is arduous at times, and you are weak. someday you will dance light-footed on the high peaks; but for now, your walk is often plodding and heavy. (VERY HEAVY CURRENTLY) All I require of you is to take the next step, clinging to my hand for strength and direction. Though the path is difficult and the scenery dull at the moment, there are sparkling surprises just around the bend. Stay on the path I have selected for you. It is truly the path of Life.

Ok, God. You got me!

This whole process hasn't been easy, but I am very thankful for my devotional. Just as soon as I lose all hope and am on the brink of giving up; God has just the right words for me. Pray for me, friends, that we can get under a roof as a family soon and we can begin to unpack and start creating our home again. Jeremy lacks 2-3 weeks in Canadian before he will begin with Baker. I have a workshop to complete this week and then the classroom transformation begins!

PACKING!

Packing, Packing, and MORE Packing!!! Urgh! Feels like I just did this yesterday!

Until the packing and move is finished, I'll be away from the blogging world!!!

As for July- looks like we are squatting at the in-law's casa and will be moving to KC in August!

Fun times ahead!

I caught a glimpse of a mother and son riding bikes yesterday across from the school (as I was dismissing my summer school students) and it brought such joy to my heart. FINALLY- We get to do this now. We get to have a family friendly safe neighborhood that we can ride bikes as a family. We can go for walks, we can have friends over, and all the other goodies that goes along with living in a wonderful neighborhood. I'm getting excited!!!!!!!!!!

Now if I only knew where my classroom was or what grade I would be teaching...........

Another door....

Well, the door for me has been completely flung open. To the point that, even with there being no current opening at that school, the school board approved hiring me and adding a position if necesary! Speculations have it that there will be a position for me, in time, but as of now there isn't.

We are still so torn. We go from here, to there, to here, to there, constantly, multiple times, daily.

What is suppose to be one of the easiest decisions that we thought, is turned out to be the hardest one.

This decision is huge. It affects our life. It affects our family. It affects our children's education.

I'd love to give more details; but until we decide either here or there- there really isn't any point in that.

D-Day is at the latest- Friday. HOPEFULLY today!

Knots........

For the past week now, I've had horrible sharp stomach pains. I'm pretty sure we can all sum that up to one thing- STRESS!!

Summer school is in full swing, and I LOVE it! I know I'm going to love that extra paycheck, even more! It goes by super fast- it's still allowing my girls their structured morning at their school, and also giving them time with friends!

I've never been more torn, more stressed in my entire life over a decision. I feel as if Jeremy will make his decision today, since the corporate office called yesterday leaving a voicemail with the official offer. The offer is the exact same as he is making here, then all the added benefits. They offered him exactly what he said he would be willing to go for.

As for me and my job; that's very debatable at this point. There has been a door slightly cracked open- but nothing has been completely opened yet. I never thought this was going to come so soon and there is still lots of decisions to be made. Housing, start dates, resignations, etc. So, as always- continue to lift us up in prayer as we feel that God is calling Jeremy to this job.

I finally his my breaking point last night. There's just something about your momma that can get it out of you and you can finally release everything that you feel. I wanted to scream, I wanted to cuss, I wished I had never ever came here this past year. I have experienced the absolute most wonderful work place with the most professional boss. Just like kids crave structure- I crave professionalism. It was wonderful to dress up, every day. Not one day were jeans and t-shirts worn; jogging suits; sweatpants; etc. I'm a firm believer in - how you dress- impacts your day at work. You dress up- you step up. You dress down- your work goes down. For once in the past 6 years- I was never angry from February through April because I wanted to kill someone over TAKS/STAAR. I also never once came home mad, angry, upset, or wished I didn' thave to go to work the next day. I cried in  May because it was coming to an end and I wasn't ready. I love this place.

Little did I know; that God would come knocking.

People are going to talk, brainstorm, and create their own stories; regardless. Make it known that I am not a failure and neither is my husband. He has topped off his salary here- and he is just now 30. What he is going to there is his beginning pay- and is a promotable position with guranteed raises. You always have to look up and keep pressing forward in our opinions. Neither of us agree that he wasn't going to go any further professionally here. I just wish I could move my job-  there.

My devotional this morning though said" I am creating something new in you: a bubbling spring of Joy that spills over into others' lives. Do not mistake this Joy for your own or try to take credit for it in anyway. Instead, watch in delight as My spirit flows through you to bless others. Let yourself become a reservoir of the Spirit's fruit. Your part is to live close to Me, open to ALL that I am doing in you. Don't try to control the streaming of my Spirit through you. Just keep focusing on Me as we walk through this day together. Enjoy my presence, which permeates you with Love, joy and peace!"

So, God is creating. He is either creating me something that I have no idea about; or he's creating a new attitude in me that needs to change before this move takes place. I have to place my trust in him that he knows what he is doing and has something even greater for me in store.

Pray for peace my friends!

Tomorrow....

Tomorrow will answer many questions for our family. We should know more as to what our future holds, hopefully. I can say that Jeremy has an interview tomorrow, which is/was very VERY unexpected. We received a phone call at 10:30 pm last Tuesday regarding a job offer. As for the job/location, I feel the need to keep that private at this point. The job has mega benefits that include medical, dental, vision, orthodontic, plus a 401K and a pension. He also would get 10 paid holidays, plus 2 weeks paid vacation and a guaranteed raise every year. So, the benefits are far greater than his current job, yet the pay is very debatable. Like I said, we will know more tomorrow; hopefully.

My hope and trust is in the Lord. He knows the plans that he has for us. If this doesn't work out, he has lost nothing. He still has his current job. We both feel with the benefits that are on the table and if the pay is comparable- then we had to at least pursue it. If this doesn't work out- then we know that god has his plan of keeping Jeremy at his job and me at mine. (And I am t-totally a-ok with that!)

Please raise us up in prayers and ask God to show us his will so that Jeremy is able to make this decision, with no regrets.

Dear Lord........

My heart is so heavy and so filled with worry, all I simply know how to do is pray.....

Dear Lord,
You are the way, the truth and the life. You are the alpha and the omega. You made a promise to me through scripture last May that you knew the plans you had for me and would make straight my path. This road has been a smooth road, minus a few housing bumps. You have blessed me abundantly with a workplace that I admire with greatness. You have blessed our family by being able to be together, every night, for my family suppers. You have graciously given us Wendy, Jimmy, and Kimberly and we are forever grateful for their friendships. You are know throwing us a curve ball, and opening a door that neither of us expected. Our jaws are on the floor; the wind is still knocked out of us. You've given us a fork, and we aren't sure of your plan. Your timing in some ways seems so perfect; yet a bit confusing after a big change last May. Lord, help us to both place our trust in you. Give us the faith to stay strong and to see your plan for our family. Help me Lord, to be the wife that can submit to her husband as he leads his family in this decision. Happiness comes from within, and you have made me happy in every workplace I have ever been. Help me trust in you in knowing that you will take care of our family and do what is for the good and future for our family. Lord, my husband is torn. He is hurting. Please open his eyes to see your will for him and make this decision an easy one. Let us have zero regrets and know that we will never look back and wish we would have chosen a different path. You are our way, our truth, and our life. We give you our whole hearts Lord. You have never given us more than we can handle and your goodness always shows in the end. Please show us your way.
In your precious name,
Amen.


My friends,
Life is at an extreme high. I would love to share so many details right now, but there are so many what if's at this point that nothing is too clear. I promise to make things clearer soon. More than anything; my husband needs prayers. I am resting my peace in the bible knowing that I should submit to my husband and his authority. He is the head of our household and this decision has to be made by him. As I prayed above, happiness is a choice you make- no matter where you are. You either make the best of something; or it becomes to best of you. Please, my friends, lift our family, and even moreso Jeremy up in your prayers. He is so torn, confused, and in shock.

My Summer Outlook..........

GEEZE LOUISE! My summer is booking up/filling up quite fast! With 3 weddings to attend, husband birthday, summer school, swimming lessons,  and VBS- I am beginning to wonder if I'll ever even get time to take a trip with my family! Speaking of trips, where are you going this summer? Do you have anything excited for you and yours, or your entire family!?

I'm still debating on what we are going to do. I say a Disney Cruise, my husband says we can cruise to Galveston in our own car. So- yup! That pretty much sums up our differences in vacations!!!!

I'm trying to find a good, fun, relaxing trip, that won't cost a fortune this year. We are definitely wanting to save for a house; guess I should say ANOTHER house since we already own one in Munday. On the other hand- I want it to be absolutely  if you have any ideas/suggestions....feel free to pass them along!!!!!

Maw......

Last week was quite a whirlwind, to say the least. I received a text message Tuesday afternoon regarding my grandmother. My grandmother has been ill for quite some time and definitely weak. Something inside told me to that I needed to go see her; being that I hadn't been around since Christmas. I took off work Wednesday and went home to Munday on Tuesday evening. I went to Wichita Falls on Wednesday, to where I would see my Maw for the very last time. She was so tired that day. She barely could get out the words to speak to me. We discussed my girls, Jentri said "Maw" for her too, and we discussed how much she loved us all. She then told me how excited she was because her time to meet Jesus was coming soon! It brought tears to my eyes. She then asked about my dad's recent trip to come see us. She said that he told her how much of a good time he had. He told her all about Jaylee playing soccer, to her dance recital, to our ever so frustrating housing situation. She asked if anything new had come up, and I told her much to our frustration, no. She calmly smiled and said "God will put you where you are meant to be".

I left that day happy. I was happy to let my Maw go. I was happy to see her suffer no more. I came back to Canadian, and back to work on Thursday. My heart was heavy Thursday evening after speaking to my Dad and middle sister. I knew the time was near. I began packing my bags, as I knew what my weekend would probably have in store. As Jeremy arrived home at 7:30- he was talking on the phone. He came in the living room to tell me once he hung up, that Maw had just passed away. As rejoiceful as I was for her, I was saddened for me. My Maw was precious. My Maw was one of a kind.

Upon reminiscing of my favorite things about my Maw, here were some of my faves:
1.cooking- My Maw was the best cook, especially when it came to desserts. Coconut creme pie, chocolate pie, pecan pie, German chocolate cake, Italian creme cakes, and my favorite- peach cobbler, were definitely some of the best. We would gather on any occasion, and if there wasn't at least ONE dessert, per person, then she wasn't satisfied. She loved to cook. Her God given talent was Cooking and she displayed it; daily.
2. Feisty- my grandmother had a definite feisty side kick to her. (I've learned that this is probably where I get some of mine from). She had no problem speaking what she thought (hmmmm) and she definitely could put anyone in their place. I loved her honesty. As some would be offended by "your gaining weight" or "you're losing weight"- I loved loved loved her honesty.
3. Biscuits and Gravy. With tears in my eyes as I write about this, I can say that my Maw made the best homemade biscuits and gravy. Her biscuits had the best taste and nobody could make biscuits like my Maw! (She also made the best apricot preserves, from her apricot trees in the backyard, that would make your mouth water )
4. The finger. While some Grandmothers read books to their grandchildren, or play games/puzzles, my grandmother taught me survival skills. When I was really little, I mean, REALLY little- like probably age 4, maybe 5. I remember my Grandmother asking me if anyone ever made me mad or upset sometimes. I recall hat particular day being upset with my Mom as she left me sleeping on my grandparents couch, while she ran to Wal-Mart. I was so ticked off at her! Anyways, My Maw taught me that when anyone makes me mad or upset, to just "give em the finger"! And boy howdy.... she even taught me how to do it! Talk about hilarious! To this day, I still remember her sitting on that couch and laughing at me saying "Brittany, just give em the finger!"
5. Vocabulary- My maw had such a  southern draw on some of her words. She was one who never washed her hair in the bathtub, and I don't recall the woman ever taking a shower. She would always wash her hair in the kitchen sink. When the time came for her to wash her hair for the week, she would always say "I need to go ranch my hair out" (Instead of saying RINSE, she had such a draw on the middle sound that it sounded more like ranch my hair instead of rinse- priceless!)
6. Simplicity- Maw was SIMPLE. She didn't need fancy clothes, cars, diamonds, dishes, furniture, etc. All Maw wanted was love and happiness. When I think of happy, I think of Maw. Her Pa was the absolute light of her life- and nothing brought her more joy than him. After surprising us all and lasting 10 years after his death, she still displayed her simplicity. Maw never wanted attention. She never wanted people to gawk or stare at her. Maw just loved to give and enjoy people's company. I wish I was more like this- just simple.
7. Lollipooces! Yup- that's right- "Lollipooces" is what Maw would say when something surprised her, upset her, or just made her feel good..... you could always hear her say "Lollipooces" and it would always make me laugh/smile. Don't ask me where it came from- it's just Maw~!

I could go on longer, but as you can see- my grandmother definitely had some characteristics that separated her. She was so funny and such a light in my life.

Something that I have been able to cling onto is that she told me that God would put me where I was meant to be. As very few know, Jeremy and I have been on hold with housing. We actually have been on a waiting game for a place that Jeremy knows about. Long story short- the man was dying in the nursing home, and his son (Jeremy's friend) couldn't sell it until the man died. As awful as it sounds to be "waiting on a death to buy a house"; we just keep praying for God's timing. His timing maybe just that- perfect. After getting past my Grandmother's death Thursday evening, we learned that this friend's Dad died Thursday evening as well- at the exact same time. Could this be God closing one of my doors; yet opening another? I don't know- it's almost bone chilling to think about it. I just know that I'm clinging to the cross because my worries are getting me nowhere.

To my Maw- you were the best Maw I could ever ask for. Your simplicity and your recipes will forever be dear to me. I know you are in heaven cooking Pa biscuits and gravy, all the while he's standing there saying "hubba hubba" as he watches you cook! I love you.

Happy Mother's Day!

 

Well, as Mother's day came and went, I felt totally blessed to be a Mom. I've got two pretty awesome girls, who may test my patience-daily, but I love them to pieces! I think it's more that their Daddy, combined with the two- test my patience! He knows how to get them going and to get my blood boiling sometimes!!
Our weekend started with Family Night at daycare Friday evening. We went and enjoyed Jaylee's class perform their little songs. The worm workout was so cute! They then ended with their Mother's Day craft, and Jaylee had written a story for me. Things that she liked to do with me like what book we read, what thing we did, what she loved the most about me. Talk about a wake up call. I, as an OCD person tend to go overboard with worrying about the house, the laundry, etc and not enjoying my time with my kids. When she wrote how much she loved to bake cookies with me and read the silver purse book, it made me cry. How detailed her descriptions were. How much her little mind knows and remembers. It really makes you realize that your time with your children is very precious and it is remembered with them was to what you do.

While our original plans for the weekend were to spend the weekend, at home, just relaxing. That all changed Saturday afternoon. My mother and niece left to go back home and as we were laying down for naps- gunshots began to fire!  After the first one, I thought "surely not?" , then after the next two fired, and the Mexican music began to play, I couldn't take it any longer. My husband told me to pack the bags and we would go to Amarillo. He didn't have to tell me twice.

We were out the door, within 30 minutes, and off we went. We ate China Star Saturday evening (my choice- yes, I love Chinese food, and my kids eat free there- and they love it- double bonus!)Then Sunday we went to Johnny Carino's. I've only eaten there twice- but their bread, dipped in that flavor infused olive oil, and their vinaigrette dressing on their salad- was wonderful!! I also got to spend some time shopping, just by myself Sunday morning. Then after lunch, Jaylee and I razooed through the mall, shopping together. It was so much fun! She picked out clothes and jewelry, and of course I did the same! It was fun! :)

Then of course, can't leave town without Sam's and Wal-Mart. Ugh, I could go on and on about how much toilet paper, paper towels, trash bags and diaper cost, but I'm sure you all know! My husband normally doesn't go to Sam's with me, and so he was quite surprised at the almost $300 bill that we threw down there! However, I only go about 8 times a year there and I stock up on things that really save you money, and that you always need on hand! Nothing makes me madder than running out of paper towels, toilet paper, or trash bags!

So, all in all, a weekend spent with my biggest blessings, made this momma happy!

A tour of our house, hopefully!

 

Well....... Good news is.... we have found our house!!!!!!!!! The bad news is..... we have no place to put it! Bummer, huh!? As nosey as some of you are, I thought I'd go ahead and share some of my faves. (Disregard the decorations- they do not come with it, fortunately!)

 
As you walk into the back door- you walk into this massive laundry room. I love the view of seeing, walking straight through! Before you walk from the laundry to the kitchen- there is a quaint little study/office area- and opposite of that is a guest bath!
While some might be shocked at the flooring- I actually fell in LOVE with it. Although I would have never, ever picked something like this out- I definitely loved it in this house!

Another big plus is my big garden tub. I can't wait to actually take a hot bath again. For the past year- it's been showers only! The hot water heater was too small to fill my tub!

 

One of my top priorities in house hunting was OPEN KITCHEN.... and this house definitely gives you that! I can cook in my kitchen (love the bar by the way) and I can look over to the left and see the den or look forward and see the formal living room. LOVE LOVE LOVE that! I also had 2 living areas on my top priority list, so check that off as well! Did I also mention that the kitchen has 36 drawers????

 

Here is another view of the kitchen, looking over towards the bar. I'm standing as if I just left the formal living room. Once again, disregard the ugly picture's, palm trees, etc. Which, actually, that palm tree is sitting in the perfect place for a christmas tree!!! How exciting!!!

Here is our favorite room, yes, Jeremy even said so himself. The den. It has what you call a "gaming bar" that overlooks the den are. It has many outlets included in it- so you can hook up chargers, ipods, laptops, etc all the while looking at the tv, that is not included, and it has fully equipped surround sound. It also has a fire place, which is another check on my list!!! Although this bar would probably not be high on your list- it was another thing that I absolutely fell in love with!!!

Here is another view of the den. I also LOVED the sectional sofa they had in there, as did Jeremy. After muchy prying, jewing, and negotiating, they still wouldn't sell it to us! DARN!

This is a view of standing in the den- looking back towards the kitchen. You can see that my kitchen has a big L shaped bar- big enough for atleast 6, maybe even 8 bar stools! You can also see to the right of the dining room table- there is a big, blank- wall. ARe you thinking what I'm thinking- that's right- Unky Munky get ready- that china cabinet is coming to canadian!!!!


The house is 2660 square feet in all. It has 4 bedrooms, 3 1/2 baths, 2 living areas, and a huge open floor plan. I love how the master bedroom is at the front of the house- and the other 3 bedrooms are on the complete opposite end of the house. In the master bath there is the "mans" corner- where he has his own vanity- with 4 drawers- eight cabinets- and a big closet. Then on the other side of the bathroom is MY part- with a 8 foot vanity- lots of cabinets and drawers and a very, big walk in closet. I'm in heaven!!!! When you first look at that part of the house- it gets kind of confusing- but then you start to think about it and think "Hey- I really like this!" Another big plus for us is the big laundry room. It has a sink with 14 cabinets - and 6 drawers as well. It also has room for my deep freeze, and an additional fridge. Love Love Love! I also love that when you walk into the backdoor- it's connected to the master bath- so those nasty, greasy, stinky, smelly clothes that my husband walks in with every day- he gets to go right into the shower- without stepping on my carpet! LOVE! Another thing that we loved is that the 4th bedroom has its completely seperate bathroom. Of course Jaylee will love that when she gets older, yet I also know of a Lolli and Pa, and a Nana and Popo that will thoroughly get their use out of that, without having to take turns in the girls bathroom, or ours!

Overall- we are both in love! This house has every single thing that I ever wanted in a house. If I was to even build my house- this floorplan is what I would use. It just screams family, fun, entertainment. It's not closed, boxy feeling. It's open, spacious, and is just waiting for the first christmas party to be thrown!

Ok, now I'll come back to the real world. What good is this beautiful home, without a place to put it? We actually did have a lease on a place- yet- after finding one of this capacity- it will never settle on ground that is 25 feet of sand. So, big downer there! If you don't mind, please continue to pray for us. We have fallen in love with a house, just need a flat place to put it!

 

 

 

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

28 YEARS TODAY! My day started with my busting me ass on the ice on my front porch! Yup- there's a milestone for sure. Ice and Snow on my birthday- and to bust my rear on it makes it all the more memorable (not!)  It's hard to believe that I'm 28 and getting closer and closer to 30. I am not ready to be 30- so here's to hoping these next 2 years go SLOW!! In my prayers this morning, I thought about all that I've accomplished in 28 years of my life- and felt very blessed after going through the list. I feel as if I've grown into a very independent adult, mother, and wife who has proven many wrong and has definitely made something of herself. I feel as if I still have more to prove and mountains to move. I also thought about my goals for my 28th year of life: and, my biggest goal would be HOUSE and the next goal would hopefully be baby #3! I've said since I was engaged to Jeremy- I will not have kids after I'm 30- I don't want to be working concession stands in a wheel chair, or going to graduation with a cane! So there ya go Unky Munky- hopefully your wish will come true in the next 24 months! (Might need to keep working on Jeremy, though!)      So here's to my next year of life!!! I can' t wait to see what God has in store for me!

Outfit # 2

So, if this isn't BOLD and SPRINGY.... I'm not sure what else is! I have fallen in love with mint and corral/peach. Obviously so has the rest of the world- but I'm a sucker, what can I say?

Here is my outfit today....

Celebrity Pink Jeans/Capris from Macy's $30

Chloe K Mint Top from Nordstrom $25

Silver Sequin Sperry Shoes (This has been on my WANT list for a while- found them at Nordstrom Rack this past weekend! Original cost is in the $75-$80 range- got them for $49.96! So glad I didn't buy the off brand I've been eyeing and thinking about settling for!

I didn't put a necklace with this outfit- felt as if the top was busy enough......

So, what are your favorite colors this spring?

(Excuse the blurriness/weirdness of any self photos- I have a 4 year old taking my pictures because my husband tries to take it crooket- put is body parts in it- or just says that "that's retarded". So- bare with me, please!)

Too good?

Yesterday, someone commented to me that "it's almost as if Canadian was too good to be true".......

Talk about a punch to the stomach. That quote/thought stuck with me the rest of the day....

Could it be true? Could it really be that all of this for the past year was "too good to be true?"

I don't know, but it really makes me wonder. What's hard for me to understand is all the open doors and signs that pointed North to this place.

Last night, we discussed why we wanted to stay here. First and foremost- education. Not only the quality of education- the opprotunities that my kids receive, especially in technology, are far greater than where I came from. Secondly- dynamics in their education. Here, the disadvantaged rate is only at 13%. Back home- it's over 50%. Now, do not misuderstand, the dynamics are beginning to change here as the oilfield continues to boom. We are seeing more and more of the hispanics, and still very few of the african americans.  Another reason we want to stay is Jeremy's income from his job. As much as he can complain, moan, and groan about the idiots he works with- I consitently remind him that being in a mechanics position, and having idiots run your machines, is only in fact job security for him. (Aren't I the nicest wife?) A fourth reason would be my job. I absolutely, without a glimpse of doubt, LOVE my job. This is the first job in 6 years that I am acutally saddened to see May come. Other places- I was COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS AFTER SPRING BREAK! Yet, a big difference could also be the change in grades that I teach. I was pretty stressed with my past jobs of preparing students for STAAR/TAKS. Teaching 1st grade has been the biggest blessing, by far! I also love the ladies I work with. All 5 of us, still today, LOVE working together, are all pretty level headed, and love working together. We all accept each other's ideas. We all "roll with the punches". Nothing gets us "down" or "in our way". We all seem to have the same general understanding that we are not here for ourselves, but only for our students. Usually by this point in the year, I am having a hard time even speaking to some co-workers. I used to avoid some at all costs because hearing their voice just rubbed me wrong. ONe of those "yeah yeah- same song different verse" kind of people." Let's just be honest- we all know ME- and we all know that I can't handle the whiners/cryers/moaners/groaners. Suck it up people- put on your big girl panties- and be thankful! So, I haven't met any of those, well only one, and thankfully I don't have to see her very often and that's only becuase she gets the luxury of closing her classroom anytime she wants, or just see my kids every other week, or even at all because she is "so overwhelmed"

OK- I'll get back to topic now. I could go on for days......

So, as you see, there are lots of advantages to living here and working here. I would also put Wendy, Jimmy, and Kimberly on that list as well. Yet, our time together is probably coming to an end soon as they will be moving onto another location in the future. Prayers for us as we find another "hoodie friend" as good as them. They are purely- good as gold!

The only disdavantage that we could come up with is that "it wasn't home" and "housing market". On the other hand- we both agreed that we didn't want to move "home" just to go back to living like we were. Plus "home" will never be "home" like it was when we were both 18. So, moving back is pretty much out of consideration at the moment. Although I do have a 3 bedroom, 2 bath, brick home with a big yard that would definitely feel like a mansion at this point.

The latest update We are actually making some headway on a lease agreement with some land, so fingers crossed that this is where God has plans for us!

On hold....

Housing is currently on hold right now. We are basically at a fork in the road; and undecided as to what to do. As much as I LOVE LOVE LOVE my job, and want my children to go through this school system- it's not worth diving into financially for this housing market. I'm having a very hard time trying to understand God and his will for us. I've prayed and prayed and prayed and still have no clear sign. Just as soon as I feel like we are onto something- we hit another speed bump- and it sets us back to ground zero.

So, if you have time, please say some prayers for us. Whether it's his will to move us here to another home, or to another town- we only want what HE wants us to do. As clear cut as the signs were for us to move here- our feeling is that HE would not lead us this far and then quit. I know he has a special place, prepared just for us; I'm just impatient.

I'm MAD, I'm ANGRY, I'm UPSET, I'm CONFUSED!

Well, as the good ol' saying goes- "ALL GOOD THINGS, MUST END". And, as many times as this happens, I still HATE it when it happens.

Many of you are aware that our current housing situation is just down in the pits. Although we were graciously given this FREE home, it definitely has been one of those "you get what you pay for" kind of deals. The location of my home is far from luxurious. Disgusting is probably the best adjective I could use currently. Yes, it is a roof (somewhat- sure does rattle when the wind blows- this is why most mobile homes have TIRES on their roofs!) over my head, and it does have us a bedroom to sleep in, and it does have running water and electricity. Yet, I don't feel that it's ungrateful of us to want better for ourselves when we worked hard for our college degrees and worked to better ourselves professionally.

We were notified yesterday that in TWO WEEKS we are to notify the school of a yes or no answer regarding our request of keeping or leaving the current house. Aside from being CONFUSED as to why I'm given a TWO WEEK decision to make- I'm just down right- pissed. When I first accepted the job here, and got moved in, everything was so sweet and sugar coated. Yet, as I've gotten to the center of this lollipop- I'm realizing that all good things are coming to an end- and it's coming fast. I was notifed that my rent will be going up to $550/ month, plus a $500 deposit is needed as well. Ha! If that isn't a joke. A deposit? After I've been living there a YEAR? Then, you want to charge me $550 for rent as a "courtesy" to help all us new teachers out- yet we are expected to save something for a mortgage on a $250,000 house that isn't worth 50,000 in reality. Can I get an AMEN?

Yes, I was well aware that rent would be requested after the year was up- little did I know that we would be slammed an oilfield rent price on a teacher salary! Some say that I have a husband that works in the oilfield- and yes, this is true. However- what bout these single teachers that are having to foot this $550, alone, on a teacher salary? How fair is that? And let's be realistic- it's a frickin (sp) trailer house in the ghetto! Yes, the ghetto.

 Why is it the ghetto? Just this past Thursday, as I was trying to grill some supper- and the girls were playing in their cubicle of a sandlot/yard....I opened the front door to find two black men on my doorstep begging me for money. Much to my luck- I have a dog that doesn't like strangers- and was saved by her raging bark/chase. I also have drunken neighbors who have festivities at all hours of the night, and all days of the week. I have people who fly by my house at50+ miles an hour- in a 15mph zone. I have trash sitting all around my house because of lazy worthless government abusers not picking up after themselves. I have lovely, Tejano music blaring at all hours of the night. I have a train that shakes my house, hourly. THIS DEFINES GHETTO!

So, I'm Mad, I'm angry, I'm upset, and definitely confused. I have no idea what we are going to do. If I knew 100% that I will live here forever, or just as long as my kids graduate- then I'd jump right off into it. But- you have to really look into our situation to understand. Oilfield can crash at any moment. It's already happened here- 3 times actually. Plus, after Jeremy's boss' wreck this past fall- and the current trial being held- anything could happen. We have really been leaning towards the "ready built/double wide" type house for the sole reason of our gypsy lifestyle. If we do a move in, and do not brick it- and leave the original siding on it- we can infact move it out if we were to have to move/transfer/etc.

So, I'm really, really torn currently. I have been dreading this day since the day I moved in. I knew this day was coming. I really believed that I would have transitioned into something else by now, but that's just not the case.  If you have any spare moments during prayer time- please say one for us. This is definitely a frustrating situation and I'm ready to have it solved.

Anybody else?

Let me just start out this post by stating that I am in no way a political speaker. But, I just want to know something. Is anybody else tired of the bashing against our president? Every time I get on facebook there is always some sort of photo, thought, quote, rage, against our president. When you turn on the news it's either approval rating has gone up, or it has gone down. NO- I did not vote for this president and NO I do not care for the way he handles/addresses some things. I also don't approve of the situation our entire world is in.

HOWEVER- these are my feelings. As much time as we spend bashing, complaining, pointing the finger, etc. at him, why can we ALL not spend this time in prayer for him? I'm sure it's sure to say that none of us would want his job; or atleast I don't. I'm just tired of the lack of respect. Above anything else, he is still our president and he is still someone that we should all respect. Note- I did not say "one we have to AGREE with"  If we do not "Agree" with him or his choices- then why don't we turn to prayer instead. There is that verse in James 4:2 it says "You do not have because you do not ask God." Ironic? Maybe we don't have who/what we NEED because we have turned too far from him and have quit turning to him and asking. Maybe God is trying to teach us all a lesson. Maybe he has given us the wrong- inorder to show us the need in praying for the right.

After watching the BIBLE on THC for those few weeks, I learned that, bottom line, IF YOU FOLLOW GOD- GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU. Therefore, instead of constantly worrying about "what this world is coming to" and "what will he think of next" and so forth- why not spend that worry time in prayer time with God?  Maybe then he will start to answer our prayers and truly then give us what we need. Yet, do we really "need" a president whenever we already have the one and only KING we will ever need?

Just my thoughts!

My new best friend.....her name is SOMA!

SOMA is my new found friend. I stumbled upon this store during holiday shopping, and really splurged on my Mom, Mother-in-law, and MiMi for Christmas. I did, however, stash the gift receipt with these pajama's as well, because spending that amount in the pajama department, is not worth wasting any money over.

Since then, all 3 of them have said how much they love their pajama's. So, I finally decided to splurge on myself, and buy some for myself! Oooo lala..... ladies, you will NOT be disappointed. You will in fact go back and probably buy you another pair. They're THAT amazing! The picture here is the purchase that I made. (Sorry it's someone else- I'm no model when it comes to pj's!)



Upon making my purchase, and loving them so much, Judy (my m-i-l) decided to hit up Soma this weekend.My friend Marge has been telling me about these amazing, vanishing panty line panties that soma makes. They never ride, never move, they are simply STUCK in place. They have this rubber lining that sticks to your buns, and they never move. We got suckered into the Buy 3 get 2 free deal, however, they still came out to almost $10 each. Yikes! I know that is alot for one pair, however, I would not lie to you girls! It's WORTH it. After 2 days of wearing them, I'm hooked. You actually cannot even tell that you have anything on, but yet gives you a feeling like your all covered up as well. We recently had a discussion at work regarding our undergarments and I was shocked to learn that many just go commando! DAILY! Surprising to me, yet probably not to some! As for me, I'm sticking with these rubber babies!

Not only did I buy those, we actually ended up leaving with a huge purchase of stuff. We had the best lady who made us feel super, duper comfortable and really cared about what we liked/didn't like. I ended up walking out additionally with 2 bras (surprising wearing the wrong size- darn you VS!) and a long, evening lounge type gown. LOVE IT!

One thing that I absolutely love about this place is that it's REAL. You don't walk into a store with size 2 girls, teenagers even, trying to help you. Their tiny little A's don't hold nothing to these double d's. They do not have a clue. However- soma is the opposite. Nothing is made for a size 2 model there. I call it a VS for Mom's.

So, next time you need some new undies, and you start heading back to your store for those 5 for $25, or whatever the special is, think about trying SOMA. I promise, you will LOVE it! (it may not love your bank account though :S)

My new outfit!

Aside from bargain shopping this weekend, we did find time to shop some of our favorite stores. I was able to find me some new spring outfits for school! Being in Canadian has taught me that Spring doesn't start in MARCH like it did back home. It's still 30 degrees here in the morning, and we are lucky to see 60 degrees by the time school is out. We are getting up to 72 today (Awesome!) but that's one of the biggest differences that I have had a hard time adjusting to!

My point in showing off my clothes is not to by any means "brag" or "show off". My point is to show working mothers out there that clothes do not have to be designer brand, or spend an entire month's paycheck on one outfit. I am a huge fan of bargain-money saving-trendy clothes!

So- here is outfit #1 that I am sporting off today! What do ya think?

Denim Jacket - (from American Eagle) = Unsure of price, it was a gift from Mother In Law 2 years ago for Christmas. EVERYONE needs denim coat- it goes with almost everything (just don't get lazy and begin to wear it with everything- I try for once every 6 weeks)      Corral dress from Kohls = $22. Plus 20% off!                   White Merona Sandals = $15 from Target Sorry you can't see them very well- but they are super cute and go with quite alot of things!!! Long white and clear beaded necklace with matching earrings = $13 from Charming Charlies. Aside from the dress, all of the other pieces are definite multi-use accessories!   

Overall- I like this outfit. It is definitely "teachery" and "professional". What are your thoughts!?

 

 

BARGAINS...BARGAINS....BARGAINS!

Look at my little Tinker Bell model... isn't she cute!? I had to start out my blog post with her adorable pic! She has been begging for new dress up clothes- and so low and behold- here is what Mommy found for her this weekend. Trinkets to Treasures was NO disappointment this year! As I stated in my earlier post about our weekend- this makes the 3rd Annual trip that my mother in law and I have made to the Plano Jr. League "Trinkets to Treasures". I must say that we have so much fun, and get SO much stuff, that it's definitely WORTH going to! It just so happens that it falls on NASCAR weekend, so it's a perfect trip for our family!

So get ready for lots of pics--prices--and it's ok to drop your jaw! I did too when I stumbled across these bargains!

Up first is my FAVORITE purchase. It's a beautiful BRAND NEW printed apron. Why do I love this? First off- anyone from Duck Dynasty knows that Mrs. Kay always has her apron on. And anyone that knows me- knows that one of my favorite hobbies is cooking! So, a cook MUST have an apron. Will I wear it? Eh, probably not, but it's already hanging on display in my kitchen! I know you're shocked that it's red- but it matches my kitchen oh so perfectly!

Up next is the huge assortment of scarves that I snatched for a total amount of $1 each. Now THAT'S a bargain! I can't wait to find a coordinating outfit and start showing them off!

 

Although Nine West is not near as popular as some designer brands, I LOVED this purse. I got it for the total amount of $2. (It's ok to be jealous!)

 

 

Up next is one of my jaw droppers! I fell in love with this Vera Bradley makeup/travel bag. It has an elastic closure around the top, and inside is an additonal makeup bag. I can't wait for our next trip to put some goodies (I'm thinking kids medicine bag--we always travel with medicine for those "just in cases")

My next purchase wasn't any great brand, or atleast I am not aware of it, but was definitely a NECESSITY! Snow bibs for Jaylee. We experienced our first blizzard this past winter and saw the need to have these- especially when it's time to get out and play in it! I paid 75 cents for these and definitely think that I will get my money out of them!

Check out this super super cute rain coat for Jentri that I found? Is it not ADORABLE. With the way the drought is around this part of Texas, we really don't NEED one that often, however, for $1, why the heck not have it on hand just in case!?

Now here is my OMG! Many of you know that I am a lover of paisley so when I saw these I thought- for 75 cents- this will definitely be worn- especially in the summertime! So I threw them in my bag, not thinking twice about it. As I was unpacking last night- and getting pics taken to show all of you- I was looking for the brand and low and behold MICHAEL KORS! How about that!? 75 cents for an ADORABLE- looks like new --2 paisley print sleevless tops! Heck yes! Put those with a cute little cardigan and some dress pants in the winter--- Ooooo lala!

 

Navy just might be one of my new favorite colors. My friend Megan once upon a time sported this sailor outfit that just spilled over in Navy. I laughed at her at the time- however--Navy has began to grow on me. While I was looking through the clothing- I thought "Wow- that's a cute dress- and I like the length" Threw it in the bag as well- never thinking twice about it. Guess what? Got it home and it's Juicy Coutoure! Ah! Love it!!! Makes that 75 cents feel like 100 bucks!!! I love a bargin- and thrill over a steal!

This next one was no designer brand- but I fell in love with the majestic looking print. For 75 cents- I'll get my wear and tear out of it. Besides- it's another "Teacher outfit" (which I'm getting sick of by the way! Can you tell summer is near?)

How about this cute plaid POLO dress for my cutie patootie? Won't she look ADORABLE in this with some dressy brown sandals!?! I can't wait!

Ok- So many of you will be like "We just went from Michael Kors to this?" But yes, I couldn't resist the holiday section because my holiday decor is a bit on the slim side. Nothing makes me happier, or my heart warmer than decorating for fall and Christmas. I fell in love with these little fellas! As I sat them on the bar last night- Jentri crawled up and grabbed their noses while telling each one of them "hi....hi....hi". It was too cute! (Some were $1, others were $.50! Megan- get over it- I love snowmen/scarecrows!)

 

Remember sitting around after weddings and mothers wondering what in the heck will I ever do with a mussie tussie? I fell in love with this silver, intricate design and thought "bracelet holder". I can't wait to stack my bracelets on this baby and not have them stuffed inside my box taking up all my room! What do ya think? Was it worth 50 cents?

Of course there was Jewelry to be found, but lots of Hispanics were grabbing and pushing and I just really didn't see the need in it. I did however meander over and found these next two pieces.

                                                                               This one is black and all sparkly. Although it's probably not a beauty to some- it definitely will match many of my black and red outfits that I wear in the winter time. And for $2 for the set, can you really go wrong?

The next piece is my pride and joy. I am not a pearl picker, nor do I even own a pair, but when I saw these- I HAD to have these. First of all- the quality and weight of this necklace tells that there is more than just Charming Charlie beads there. The metal clasp and end pieces are very nice metal quality- so brand or no brand- they are beautiful to me! $1? I think so!

Now look at this piece.. First off-- gulp- it's GOLD! (shocker, huh?) and look at those colors and shapes of each gem. I thought this would be beautiful during those pretty fall months.... can't wait to see it on!

And let's just be honest- What's a garage sale/rummage sale without kitchen gadgets? Don't we ALL need a new gadget here and there? Look at these cute little gadgets. This whisk is the perfect size. I have a large one and a medium sized one, but this one is more medium-small size. 50 cents! Deal! The measuring spoon, after some research, were obviously given to a hostess at a wedding shower. The  brand is Kate Aspen who delights herself with a website of cute little wedding favors. Still, they are very cute to me and will definitely be used in my kitchen before some hands get them and take off with them to the sand box!

 

Up next was my most expensive purchase- 2 quilts for my girls' bunkbeds. I spent a fortune on their bedding when we first moved in. Silly me, little did  I think about dirty feet, hands, etc constantly crawling on this beautiful bedding. I was thinking strictly bed time. How many times they come in from outside and go to playing on their beds- ALOT! So- I found this set for $11 for a twin quilt and matching sham. Even if it's used- I definitely don't mind the dirt, spills, etc that will be getting on it!

 

On top of all of these favorites- I have a HUGE box full of fabulous finds for my classrooms. Manipulatives, counters, puzzles, toys, and books!!! I am excited to get it all unpacked and put away for my students to use!!!

 

So, after all of this---who's thinking about going to Trinkets to Treasures next year!?!?!

My week thus far!

Whew! You know those weeks that you think ya ain't got much going on...then all of a sudden you have EVERYTHING going on? Yup- that would be this week!
At the start of my week I had- TPRI test on Monday.............and pack on Wednesday.....that was it.

My week then went to..... Soccer beginning (unexpectedly)...to Jaylee coming down with Strep Throat and missing 1/2 day of work, on top of fighting the nurse to get her in (they were only open 1/2 day that day) to Grades due, immediately today at school rather than Monday, and recess duty today (since I missed yesterday) and conference with my principal during my conference today to discuss TPRI. Whew! Thank goodness I thought ahead and went ahead and used my 1/2 day yesterday to pack because I had to work til 5 this eve just to get caught up/ready for work tomorrow!

Jaylee, however, is already on the mend. The Dr. told me I would see massive improvement after the first 2 doses, and he was right! Other than not being able to eat almost anything, she is back to herself! Here's to fingers double crossed in hoping that Jentri will not get it. (Have an RX on hand just in case)

This weekend, you will find us off to DFW! It's our Annual Spring Nascar Lowe trip. The boys go to the NASCAR race and the girls find themselves at a huge garage sale--- hardly call it garage sale with the quality of stuff you find there, but to each their own! The race will take place Saturday evening (Jeremy loves night races!) and we will be shopping or relaxing in the hotel with the girls!  I love these trips with Jeremy's family. We always laugh a bunch, never have a true "itinerary" and we just go with it! Of course we have our traditional restaurant faves (Angelos- Cheesecake Factory- Pappadeaux-) However-- we are skipping Pappadauex this year and trying some kind of new "chop house" or other that Pa has heard about! So we shall see! I'll definitely be posting all kinds of pics of my bargains!!!

As for my TPRI this week- Wow! I am sure you are tired of hearing just how rewarding teaching 1st grade is, and aside from my little darlings shits currently (spring fever has hit!) they blew the roof off of that test! The goal at the end of 1st grade is to have each kid reading 60 words per minute. Aside from my 3 children who see a reading interventionist, daily, every one of my kids read 60 or above. 4 of them read above 100 words a minute. I could not be prouder! I have said this once, ok ten times, and I'll say it an eleventh- 1st grade is the most rewarding grade to teach.

So, here's to the weekend! Be sure and check back for bargain posts soon!

Busy, Busy, Busy...

TOO BUSY TO BLOG!

BE BACK SOON!

His plan.....NOT mine!

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." ~Jeremiah 29:11

This verse is what I prayed, daily, through my entire process of moving. From the day I applied for the job, to the day of driving up for the interview, for the long waiting process of knowing whether I got a job. God laid everything out for us, there's no denying it.

However, with the crazy, busy life we live....it's so hard to focus my eyes on HIM. I'm so tired....I'm weak....I'm torn. My struggle is trying to even find time to pray with him. I do listen, for 2 hours, daily to my KLove station in my room- and they say that "singing is like praying twice" I'm able to still multi-task- and work on lesson plans- yet praise him amongst it all.

It seems as if when I get the most "caught up" in life, or when I'm the busiest, and I get the most irritated with our living situation....I hear a voice saying out of James 4:2 Brittany, "You have not, because you ask not"

OUCH! Is God testing me? He has given me so much this past year, yet here I am, wanting MORE again, but am too busy to just shut my eyes and ASK?

Let me give you just a glimpse of yesterday- 5:40- Alarm--- out the door at 7:35 (that's LATE for us)- back at home at 4-- clean house, sweep, mop, vacuum dust, 5:00- go pick up girls, Play with them until 6:30. Then go and pickup supper (it was pizza hut night!), then wash the dishes, bathe the girls, read a story, do Jentri's facial treatment (I'm trying a new product on her eczema....I'll blog later about this), then talk to hubby while rocking a  baby, then go lay down with Jaylee, then go to my bed...at 10:30. Only to hear Jentri wake right back up. Back up until 11:00...... got her back down....then back up at 11:15..... I looked up and said "lord, please help me!". Jentri slept the rest of the night.

No- this isn't a beg for a pity party. I'm just pointing out that I am so guilty of getting so caught up in life, that I forget to look up faithfully-daily and just ASK. I often speak to God when I'm laying in bed- and although it's rather rude to fall asleep while praying- I've found that I'm most peaceful when I'm at rest, talking to God and I have felt as if I do fall asleep- it was God giving me the peace to rest. Is that wrong?

So, that's where I'm at with my housing issue. I got caught up with the train this morning, two of them mind you, after leaving at 7:40 from the house (back to that "timing" thing I am struggling with in my Year Seven post). My house shakes, every hour/half-hour that it comes by, it rarely wakes the kids up, but noone wants to come visit because they aren't used to it and they can't sleep. It's just rather annoying. However, I am very thankful to be in a house, that has been free, and has definitely supplied us with our NEED of a house. For this, I am grateful.

Top 10 Reasons......

Top 10 Reasons Why I Love First Grade......

10. First graders have a very unique view of the world. They are extremely observant little human beings, and they notice everything. They are like sponges, soaking up all the stimuli around them, and it is amazing the things they tell me aboutl-- what it's like at home, their adventures at Wal-Mart, what Mom/Dad are up to (sometimes TMI). Most everything that goes on in their little worlds is so innocent and fresh, and to be able to laugh and think like a child with them keeps me younger still!

9. . First graders have ENTHUSIASM! I am obsessed with the fact that they get just as excited as I do about new sight words, the weather changing on our graph, AR Reward Friday, or new phonics rules. I can always count on them to be enthusiastic about what we do, and the thing is, I honestly really DO love knowing and teaching anything new. So it makes me happy that they care too!

8. Everyday is an up-and-down rollercoaster adventure. You cannot predict what will happen one day to the next. My team teachers in first grade and I are always sharing stories about our days during lunch and conference. The stories and ongoings of our crazy days rattle off and never seem to end for any of us. Whether a student threw up on the carpet , or they tricked a substitutue, or they acted out and yelled "INCOMING" for the substitute and took cover under their desks as if they were being bombed (yes, this happened!). Each day holds a new challenge or test of its own. But we are more than conquerors.

7. . HUGS hugs HUGS hugs HUGS... all. day. long. The amount of hugs I get is insane.  It always makes me slow down and stop to count blessings when I'm going going going and then one of my students gets up in the middle of the lesson or activity and I go, "Where should you be? What are you doing?" and they just come towards me and wrap their arms around me. I immediately realize that they just want to show me they love me and that they care, and they are happy to embrace me. It helps me to calm down and realize that what I do is so much more than just cramming in 4 subject areas into our schedule each day, and it always makes my heart better than it was the moment before the hug.

6.First graders are hilarious. They do things like mispelling words, and accidentally spelling a cuss word (this makes me LOL!)  .... Or they do things like take TPRI testing materials, such as letters to make and complete a word on a task sheet, and make them dance or choo-choo train to their places. They constantly crack you up because they have no idea about social cues yet, so they just do whatever they want, and everyone thinks it's ok. Like when they meow like cats at recess,  or care too much about what's on TV. It's okay to everyone, and quite entertaining for me.

5. Acting/Singing/Dancing- my first graders LOVE brain breaks. I love to get the cha cha slide going, the Gangnam Style, or the Cha Cha Chicken Bok and it's totally normal to get jiggy with it. I love how I can bust out a song like "that's the way...uh huh uh huh..." and they just chime right in and start dancing because they are so excited. I love how they like to dance with each other, girls and boys, because at this age, it's still FUN to be friends with the opposite sex!

4. PLEASERS- First graders LOVE LOVE LOVE to please their teacher like none other grade level. They look to me as if I am their mother and love to do everything right to get that little bit of appreciation/reward.  Their hormones are not even close to kicking in, there aren't any attitudes involved, they just love to please all of their teachers- and this makes me proud!

3. RESPONSIBLE- First graders can wipe their nose, their butts, and require no help/assistance. I don't have to heard "Mrs. Lowe- I need help wiping!" or they come up to my desk with boogers running down their nose and into their mouths--- NOPE---not in 1st grade. They are very aware of the tissue box and where it is located and HOW to use it!

2. Mountain Climbers- First Grade is by far the most rewarding grade to teach that I have found, thus far. The mountains that these kids climb and achieve is skyrocketing! They amaze me more and more each day with how much they achieve. To come in on day 1, even the whole week 1 and struggle putting ABC's in order, or identifying a vowel/consonant....yet they are already reading past the 60 words per minute mark. It's almost like a light bulb effect and each kid turns it on at different times of the year. Some before Christmas, some after, some right about February, and a bunch after Spring Break. Once they realize they are "reading" they kick in a sense of passion for it- and feel a sense of pride- and there is no turning back! It's amazing to see how far they come in just 180 days together.

1. LOVE. I get to tell my students I love them every single day. I tell kids all day long, but I love how I hug them each afternoon as I put them in their car and before I can even say the words- I get to hear "I love you Mrs. Lowe"- Ah! The feeling that gives, is undescribable! I try to make it a goal to praise my kids and celebrate each day that they come to school. It's a miracle and a blessing that they are there. Sandy Hook had a huge impact on me- especially the 27 year old 1st grade teacher who hid her kids in a closet and took the bullet....... my daily outlook on my job has changed tremendously- and not a day goes by that I do not tell my kids that I love them- because I DO!

Year Seven

I've often heard that "Seventh year of marriage is the hardest", but have always told myself "whatever- anything can be hard, but you have to get over it". However, I am here today, to admit, that indeed my friends, I have found truth in the saying.

This year of our marriage, has been far from perfect. To be brutally honest- it's been rough. Yes, we have moved to Canadian, I have such a better job, my kids are on the way to a better/higher education, the girls see their Daddy-everyday. But all of this is good, fine, and well, yet our marriage has seemed to struggle. It has been quite the adjustment of living, full time, with each other- and not only that but with two kids. Many of you know that distance was always a part of our relationship, and now that is no longer the case. When he used to come home from harvest, we'd always have a few weeks that were rough adjusting, and have one big fight, and then we were good. Now, it seems as if the arguing continues, and nothing is changing.

Our biggest struggle is hearing and understanding each other. Men are such simple minded human beings. Women on the other hand are completely opposite. It definitely is causing some tension and I'm trying very hard to deal/handle with it. Another problem is we have two kids now. Before kids we could beat to our own drums.....and now it's turned into us beating to the kids' drums. It's such a daily struggle.

After having kids- in some ways, it has deepened who we are as a couple. I have learned to love Jeremy in a way that I didn’t love him before our kids were born. I love him more because there is more OF him to love. Jaylee and Jentri are extensions of mine and his love. They are our love in the flesh. So, because I love them, I am able to love him more deeply than I did before. But, don't be mistaken- it's HARD. I am hard to love- and am very well aware of it.

If you were to see us in public you probably also wouldn't say "they are having problems". But, this wall is crumbling down. I'm tried of the struggle. I'm tired of the pretending. Most importantly- I'm TIRED.

I'm just confused. I'm tired of this feeling. I'm tired of wondering. I'm tired of begging for help. Bottom line- I'M TIRED. I feel as if our marriage is no longer top priority, to us. I feel as if our kids and our jobs are coming first. After both of us working full time jobs, plus being parents, then me trying to upkeep the house- how much would anyone have left for their spouse at the end of the day? It's tough. It's hard.

I have never been one to sugar coat things- or pretend as if everything is just a field of daisies. I hate people who daily/hourly talk about their "happy life" and "my sweet spouse this or that". If things were so great/grand...... why would you have to tell everyone? Wouldn't they be able to see it by your actions/body language instead?" A very wise person once told me- people will see you the happiest, when you tell them the least....it isn't about telling the world....it's about showing the world".

So- there's my daily spill. I'm struggling, We're struggling, and prayerfully things will get better. Knowing that other marriages struggle at the 7 year mark is what's getting me through at this point.

Easter 2013

Here are some of my favorite Easter pictures! As you can see--- Jaylee Ray is growing up! And, I can't leave Jentri out- but as you can tell from all the facebook pictures- she's quite the mess-- but such a joy!! Easter is my favorite holiday--yes, I love it more than Christmas!

If I ever asked you to describe my husband, Jeremy, you probably would not put "a bible thumper" as one of the top descriptors. I would think you would label "christian" as one of them, but "one who knows his bible well" is probably not one of the top things you would say. I'll be honest- I wouldn't either. After 13 years of being together, 5 of those being married, I finally have learned something about my husband. That man---KNOWS his bible. 6 weeks ago, I randomly saw a friend post on Facebook that this new mini-series was going to be showing that evening starting at 7. Well, as many of you know, I'm not one has a very long attention span- and watching something for 2 hours, for the next 6 weeks, once a week, just wasn't very "appealing" to me. I actually had not even "planned" on watching it when it started.
However, that Sunday evening- Jeremy had just finished watching something on the history channel- and we were just finishing supper. I had the girls bathed and they were playing and looked at the clock. It was straight up 7- and I sat down with the remote and said "Why not? Let's try it!"

Here I am 6 weeks later, to tell you that I nor my husband NEVER missed one minute of any episode. That's how good this mini-series was. Our couples weekend--on Sunday- it was the center of our day to make it back by 7 to watch. Our Easter weekend, was focused on leaving by 4 to return home by 7. I will even share that my husband was probably more into it than I was. After the very first episode, I was left with many questions, and of course left in awe. I then started to take notice at how much my husband "knew". As the 2nd and 3rd episode showed, I became more and more in awe. My husband was telling me names and details of these events before they even happened. I was the one sitting there in dumbness. I even had to call my mom after most episodes to reconfirm and try to comprehend the details.

Last night was the final episode, and how gut-wrenching and promising it was. I bawled like a baby, and I rejoiced in the end. I have learned so much about my faith and the background of how it all happened.

Growing up- I was never shoved a bible. My church had it "all laid out" with something called a missalette and I never had to learn my "books" and recite bible stories. My CCD consisted of prayers, rituals, and goofing off. I had some horrible teachers- and I had some good ones too. From about 8th grade through confirmation---a total waste of time. What saddens me, looking back, is that I wasted all that time. On the other hand- my husband grew up in Sunday School every Sunday morning- learning his bible from front to back- and reciting those stories- to what Baptist call "bible drills". I probably can't tell you 5 times that I was handed a true "bible" in CCD and was told to flip to a book, read, and recite the story. Nope- that never happened. Now, I am not joking off my catholic religion, by any means. I admire the Catholic church and miss all the symbolism that the church entails.

However- what I don't miss is the sense of "forcefulness" and the "laziness" that comes from that. I don't want to seem as if I'm "blaming" the church for my not knowing my bible- any true christian knows that if you want to know the bible- get it out and read it yourself. Yet, I also know as a teacher, that children are at such prime ages to learn such valuable information- and I don't feel as if bible reading/reciting stories was encouraged.

Coming into the Easter Season, it always saddens me a little that I'm not catholic. I miss Easter Season in the catholic church. It's such a special time. However- I don't miss that feeling of "guilt" when you miss because your extremely ill, was up until 3 AM with a baby the night before, or whatever else. From my personal experience- I learned that it was more of an attendance factor more than anything. Yet, after converting to the Baptist faith- I've learned the EXACT opposite. I go to church because I WANT to go and I want to worship my savior. I'm not going to get a tally beside my name, or because I want the preacher to notice, or because I want someone in the congregation to notice.

Back to my topic- this mini series of The Bible. Upon watching John the Baptist baptizing many, and then watching Peter baptize last night, NOT ONCE did I ever see one infant baptized. I am very well aware of taking original sin away and that Catholics/Methodist do believe in infant baptism. However, no where in the bible does it ever state that infants have to be baptized. NOW- do not misunderstand. I am not AGAINST, IN ANY WAY, ANYONE baptizing their infants. If you want to get technical- I was baptized as an infant and believe to this day that I am a saved Christian on my way to heaven. I also can testify to say that there is nothing more angelic than seeing a pure, innocent infant being baptized. However- after seeing this series and diving into scripture- I have learned and solidified my decision all the more. The day that my girls get to testify and make their OWN decision to follow God- to get to REMEMBER their baptism-- How awesome is that? I am excited that in my new "religion" that everything is a"choice" for them to make. Nothing is forced by age, previous rituals, etc. Let me state this again- I am not FOR or AGAINST infant baptism, I don't feel that either way is the "right" way. I honestly feel that they are BOTH 100% true and meaningful and that God will accept both religions into his kingdom. As Paul ended his life last night saying "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful" To me- that's what life is all about. Not WHEN you get baptized, but how you fought your fight, how you remained faithful, and that determines your destiny.

Ok- so that's my sermon for today! If you haven't watched this- then I urge anyone to grab a copy of the DVD that comes out tomorrow- my family gives it 2 thumbs up, 5 stars, and SO MUCH MORE! You will not be disappointed- you will be REJOICING that you are promised an everlasting life in heaven!